Anatosa,
My heart goes out to you. About three years ago, I too was living in my car. I had just lost my job and was evicted from my apartment. I had nowhere to go, so I packed what I could in my car along with my little dog, and we lived in my car. It was a very terrible time for me. I lost all of my friends and was barely talking to my family. I would wash up for the day at a 24 hour laundry mat that had a private bathroom. During the day, I would go to the library or park. I felt so helpless and alone.
Now, I don’t know what your pastor did, but I do know it must have been very bad for you to be in this state of mind. I beg you not to give up. I don’t know if going to some type of agency with help you because I don’t know all of the details of what is going on in your life, but I do know that God is there to help you. If a door closes, God will open a window, so don't give up. Ask for his protection and guidance, God is there for you, trust me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I give to you Anatosa. I don’t know the details in her life, but God you know everything. You know exactly what she needs to be healed. I come to you Lord asking that you will heal her, protect her, and give her your love and guidance. Let her know that she doesn’t have to carry the burden alone for you are there beside her. In Jesus name Amen