Anonymous
Beloved of All
Dear Jesus God now i feel happy tht i can say everything more, now im having a very serious problem im becoming jealous and feeling upset and cheated. its like this i had a boyfriend he didnt ask me for any lunch but i gave him lunch two days now my sis got upset which i was wrong admit it, now when i use to work she use to give her boyfriend food so whats the difference, now she's trying to make herself look good and take what i purchase to accomodate her lover like seriously, it is ok when the tables turn. i have my friends she follow them around i don't say nothing n now she doesnt want me around her friend n look she stock herself to micheal till he's starts to do it to not that he's a person of just one woman stats, i just feel like i shud run away seriously i feel like i dnt no wht esle to do. everynight i go to bed anger at her n myself God Jesus i dnt want to live my life that way, im asking for your help i dont want to be a bad hearted person i want to love and give love and most of all get love. im feeling very much jealous i feel like no body likes me because im not pretty enough, i feel cheated i feel ugly, everytime i try to have a relationship the person just stop paying me any mind even when im showing them more interest then ever the treat me like dirt i dnt know what to do its truely killing me it eating my whole soul away most of all its tearing my faith down so fast i dnt know what to do, i want to remain faithful to you Lord help me to do so remember im only human and im weak you've send your son to die for us God he was still strong he came with power and dominian God i have no power i am a weak human so help me. please dont leave me show me your there for me always please, im really lonely and god seriously i cant date someone im no attracted to i cant fine myself to do it please im not beeing predujice but i just want you to know and understand stuff abt me please. yes i love light skinned person but not that i love all of them i have a special type that i love, God Jesus i know you have me in your plans i know you have great plans for me, help me to continue loving respecting honouring keep holding on to you please help me in every way God. Ok i will tell you i let myself go first to leroy then kevoy that treated me like dirt i had never felt like this before God its terrible i felt like i couldnt go through it, i felt at that time like i shudnt be born, even now it left a stain on me, no i feel in love with this guy at the gym rowan he went away n come back, after he came back dnt know wht happen he treated me like hell when i try to get with him, god all lead me on and then treat me stupid, then i tried with my class mate god it was worst also he tried to have sex with me left me on the road and drove off like im a piece of dirt i felt bad, now i met this guy at work first he was like watching me then all of a sudden he starts to get attracted to lotaya, god i was feeling horrible then i notice he was coming back to me i had a friend i ask her to find out if he has a gf he said yes so i told her no then he said i was a good girl god why didnt i let it stay the same, i when a head send her back he send his number she took it n never give it to me she said he said i shud call him, she said i shud give her a bracelet from it, i went bck ask him for his number he was a bit resentful, then he gave it to me after he told me wht time to call becuz of his girl, dont know wht happen i cll he told me to cll bck then he does ans when i cll bck lol, i send him a mgs long after he didnt ans but i when down the stairs one day hear him chatting me with javaughn lol, God i dont know wht im doing wrong but jesus if your hear with me let me know becuz its pare shame im feeling serious if u every one how im feeling God i wish you could know and feel my feels its not like you who can vanish n come out victories its not me im not a person tht can work miracle i have to live with the shame when ever body looks at me and have my name all over n never for get about me, god next its with micheal he's a work God seriously, i fell so deep in love with him n he lead me on God seriously im so down i dont know how to get over this, he knows how i feel abt him n he just treats me like i dnt have the words, God im just leaving them alone i hope you understand that im lonely i really would love for you to send me someone that both of us feel the same about each other love i mean, i dnt know if im asking for too much, i dnt know wht is happening, i dnt want to give up i want to remain with you, please im old in age now i feel self concious abt me self, im feeling like im alone here in this battle im trying not to do wrong stuff please i know its only me it will hurt but i begg of ur favour please lord, i beg for a happy home with my family, a god fairing chineese or white man whose of my lovings who loves me like u do, 2 sets of healthy god love tripples, a great job, wealth that i can take care of my family, life, health, love forgiveness, and all of your blessings. please im asking u for your undivided attention im loving and its hurting me. i dnt want to take away love from my life please i dnt want to be a sudecee please God please im beging you im beseech to you God please
