Dear God, I Can't Go On

[Anatosa]

Dear God, I am at your mercy and beg for your help. I have been wanting to die so badly because this pastor hurt me so. I was testing poisons and now have horrible stomach pain. I am homeless because of the pastor, have no insurance and no money to go to a doctor. Why do you not let me die, but just keep adding more and more pain? I wanted to serve you in the ministry, yet every day just brings more pain and sorrow. Your glory will not be served if this pastor gets what he wants and I kill myself. Please open this man's heart and have him help me before I kill myself because of the pain that he put me through. OH GOD, I'M BEGGING YOU TO HELP ME BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE! I'M SCARED GOD! HELP ME!