seekingpeacenhappiness
Humble Servant of All
Dear Father, thank you for all that you have done, all that you are doing, and all that you are going to do...What a weekend father, you have positioned me in such a way that I am trying to understand the right outcome. Please allow my sister to forgive me, I have not reached out because I have anticipated her typical reaction to my current situation. I so want to reach out to her and make this an amicable environment and enjoyable to everyone present. Father please also forgive me for the inability to face certain situations as I should not fear knowing you are with me I please for you to guide me as I will have to face this moment and will need your grace and mercy. Father I saw some very disturbing conversations this weekend, I am even at a loss for words on how to explain how I feel. I have kept my mouth shut on this matter, but it still does not make me feel any better. I still feel betrayed, hurt, and like a fool. I keep trying to turn the other cheek and not think about what is best for me but what is what he needs but when the day comes that he will no longer be here in about a month...I plea for burst of strength to cut all ties so that I can let go of the past and move forward, I cannot see this being what you plan you have for me when he is constantly doing something to make me questions he loyalty to me father. I know I wanted my family back, consider all the memories, the good ones, but I think we are in two different places in our lives and we may want the same ending but go about completely differently in the interim. I whole heartedly want both of us to be happy, I always thought it meant we would be together but it saddens me to say that it is evident his free will does not allow him to remain loyal. Father please hold my mother close to you heal her and may her tx be easy on her...Unfold any areas of my life still need to grow, consume all that is me, you have gotten me this far father, all glory to you....may my little sister enjoy the rest of her stay here. Thank you for the news my baby gave me today and may both the little ones not be into anything they should not be into. In the name of Jesus I pray...AMEN
