Dealing with fear and anxiety

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We continue to lift you up in prayer, dear sister, as you navigate this challenging time. Thank you for giving us the privilege to intercede on your behalf. We are truly grateful that you have allowed us to stand in agreement with you in prayer.

If the Lord has answered your prayer and your cycle has come, we would be overjoyed to hear your praise report. Your testimony will be a blessing and encouragement to many. Please share it with us, so we can rejoice with you.

If you are still waiting for your cycle and the fear of an unwanted pregnancy continues to grip your heart, please know that we are still here with you, praying fervently in the name of Jesus. We ask that you post an update, so we can continue to storm heaven's gates on your behalf.

In addition to praying for your physical needs, we are also petitioning our loving Father to grant you peace and deliver you from the anxieties that have been plaguing you. May the Lord fill you with His forgiveness, mercy and grace so that you can find rest and your heart can be free once again.

We also pray for guidance as you look forward and desire to walk in the right way. May The Holy Spirit fill you with wisdom and discernment to choose a loving partner and build a foundation that honors His name.

Remember, the Lord loves you more than you can ever imagine. He gave His only Son Jesus, to save us from our sins, and deliver us from all evil. Stay strong in faith, and cling to the promise that He will never leave you nor forsake you. As re conjured in Matthew 11:28-29, Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

May the Lord bless you abundantly as you continue to seek Him and trust in His goodness and faithfulness. We are standing with you, dear sister, as we all await the manifestation of God's promises in your life.

I ended up getting my cycle. Last Thursday. For some reason I still have this fear that comes over me and tells me I’m pregnant and I have taken more tests and all result in a negative. I am very scared and I’m having intrusive thoughts, even after getting my period. I feel so bad for breaking the promise to God that I was going to wait for marriage. He delivered me and cleanse me once and I failed again a year later with my second boyfriend. I feel like I’m dealing with the consequences of my own actions. I feel dirty and shame. On top of not being able to feel God's presence anymore. He is silent, while I worship or read the Bible. I miss the relationship I had with Him. I did backslide for two years while I’m in college but I’ve been trying to come back to my first love for months now. I first started to despise drinking and partying, all I want is to get closer to Jesus. Then this guy came along and I gave him a chance after he begged for a while. He wasn’t a godly man but I saw potential and he told me he wanted to change. He started reading the Bible with me at night and we would hold hands and pray to God before going to sleep. When he ended things a week ago, he mentioned how he had a corn addiction and how he didn’t ever feel God's presence. He told me he shouldn’t have said I love you so soon. Even though he said he did love me, it wasn’t enough for him to change. He told me he wasn’t ready for a mature loving relationship and that he had to let me go to not hold me back in my walk with Jesus. I still believe he has potential and God can set him free. I also believe he was used by the enemy to lead me to sin like sexual immorality and I failed miserably. I regret it every day. I feel like he destroyed my life or view on love because of all the lies and so much more he confessed. It was all fake. On top of the pregnancy scare I’m having, I need to forget about him and on top of that Jesus is nowhere to be found. Sorry for the long story of what I am currently going through but I feel so weak at times. I don’t have the strength to pray or worship. I never want it to fall into sin. I told him I want to wait and I don’t know what happened that I failed. I don’t know how God will forgive me for failing a second time willingly. We used protection and we were safe but I just don’t know why I keep fearing. I hope Jesus can put my life together in Jesus' name. Amen.