Sunday I received freedom from the bondage of sexual abuse, along with that The Lord pulled out anxiety, helplessness, depression, shame, rage, and confusion by the roots deep down in me. My biological father was one of the men that had abused me. I have very little contact with him.
Last night he posted a very sexual response to a Christian Post I made on a social media site. Immediately the words "I do not receive that" came to mind. I will talk more about those words in a bit. I posted it with I still love you. Honestly, I felt disgusted, angry, and with in seconds self pity I knew I did not want to go back there. I posted a prayer request urgently needing help with forgiveness. I then posted a separate prayer request that my father would be freed from sexual bondage, etc... Then I contacted a sister in Christ to ask for help. She told me to confess my freedom out loud and to begin praying for my earthly father.
One of the prayer responses I received on here was
May your spirit and heart be completely filled with the love that never ends from the REAL Father, Yahweh. Say that. Father Yahweh loves me. He is holding me. He will never let go of me. Father teach your ways. I pray blessing, to pour over Chilton now Father. This is the blessing of a Father to his child; I believe God wants to say it to you today: "May God bless you and protect you. May God’s face shine toward you and show you favor. May God look favorably upon you and grant you peace." Numbers 6:24 Bless you. And be at peace, by the authority of Jesus!
Very powerful.
I went to sleep still free, in peace, and strengthened.
I DO NOT RECEIVE THAT!!!!- First I would like to say how I knew that. About a month ago I was having a conversation with a sister. We were having a pretty non spiritual conversation about a work situation she was having. She explained to me she told him "I don not receive that" and went on with the conversation. The Lord put those words in my thoughts instantly when I came under attack. Thank You Jesus!!!
This was the first time I stood against My earthly father with power and conviction. In the past I wanted him to love me so much I would do anything to gain his approval. I tried to be pretty, skinny, cultured, I even joined his sex cult for a few months. Trying to gain his approval.
PRIDE- I have always been a fixer. I could fix anything for anybody or give 110%trying. I needed to be needed. I put myself in position to be needed. I hated asking for help. After I became a believer I prayed for everyone as well. For a time I just kept thinking if I prayed hard enough, good enough, everything would be ok. I had to repent of pride. The Lord ask and out of obedience I began asking for sisters help and going up for alter calls.
It is so important to hae a strong community of believers, to ask for help, The Lord uses us to minister to each other.
Dear Lord surround all the lonily, hurting, addicted, poor, diseased with Godly people that will speak truth into them. Thank You Jesus.
Last night he posted a very sexual response to a Christian Post I made on a social media site. Immediately the words "I do not receive that" came to mind. I will talk more about those words in a bit. I posted it with I still love you. Honestly, I felt disgusted, angry, and with in seconds self pity I knew I did not want to go back there. I posted a prayer request urgently needing help with forgiveness. I then posted a separate prayer request that my father would be freed from sexual bondage, etc... Then I contacted a sister in Christ to ask for help. She told me to confess my freedom out loud and to begin praying for my earthly father.
One of the prayer responses I received on here was
May your spirit and heart be completely filled with the love that never ends from the REAL Father, Yahweh. Say that. Father Yahweh loves me. He is holding me. He will never let go of me. Father teach your ways. I pray blessing, to pour over Chilton now Father. This is the blessing of a Father to his child; I believe God wants to say it to you today: "May God bless you and protect you. May God’s face shine toward you and show you favor. May God look favorably upon you and grant you peace." Numbers 6:24 Bless you. And be at peace, by the authority of Jesus!
Very powerful.
I went to sleep still free, in peace, and strengthened.
I DO NOT RECEIVE THAT!!!!- First I would like to say how I knew that. About a month ago I was having a conversation with a sister. We were having a pretty non spiritual conversation about a work situation she was having. She explained to me she told him "I don not receive that" and went on with the conversation. The Lord put those words in my thoughts instantly when I came under attack. Thank You Jesus!!!
This was the first time I stood against My earthly father with power and conviction. In the past I wanted him to love me so much I would do anything to gain his approval. I tried to be pretty, skinny, cultured, I even joined his sex cult for a few months. Trying to gain his approval.
PRIDE- I have always been a fixer. I could fix anything for anybody or give 110%trying. I needed to be needed. I put myself in position to be needed. I hated asking for help. After I became a believer I prayed for everyone as well. For a time I just kept thinking if I prayed hard enough, good enough, everything would be ok. I had to repent of pride. The Lord ask and out of obedience I began asking for sisters help and going up for alter calls.
It is so important to hae a strong community of believers, to ask for help, The Lord uses us to minister to each other.
Dear Lord surround all the lonily, hurting, addicted, poor, diseased with Godly people that will speak truth into them. Thank You Jesus.
