Day 27
As I read posts today and for the last few days, I have noticed that a lot of us are becoming discouraged. A lot of us feel that nothing is happening and we are failing or wasting our time.
Look at where you were a year ago and look at the pain you were in compared to now. Yes some days are hard, but I don't know about the rest of you, but I am much more functional now than when my H first left. When he left I couldn't move. I was immobilized in pain. My soul had left me. I was hurt and angry. There was no love in my or so I thought. I just want to make him come home no matter what.
I was getting close to God but nothing like I am now. I wanted God to fix him and bring him home. I was angry with God and my H. I felt victimized crushed. It was horrible.
I am not saying that I don't have these days any more, but they don't last as long I know where my relief and peace comes from.
I have strengthened my relationship with God. In fact for the first time I have and intimate and personal relationship with ABBA.
I love my husband more today than the day we got married. I have no animosity towards the OW. I was just saying to God today that I know in the flesh that I shold be happy or rejoice that she is sad and hurt, but I can't. I ask God to speak to her and give her peace.
I pray for my husband which I never did before. I do not try to force him ( at least not as much as before). I have feelings towards the baby that was just born.
It is amazing where I am today vs where I was two years ago.
So God is working and if we stoped and looked. We will see it. So all this reminded me of a story I once read. Here it is. I hope it helps.
The Rock / P.U.S.H.
A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light and the Savior appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. This the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore, and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.
Seeing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, the devil decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the man's weary mind "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't budged. Why kill yourself over this? You are never going to move it." This gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. "Why kill myself over this?" he thought. "I'll just put in my time, giving just the minimum effort and that will be good enough." And that is what he planned to do until one day he decided to make it a matter of prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.
"Lord" he said, "I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?"
The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to me, with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?
Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. This you have done. I, my friend, will now move the rock."
At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when actually what God wants is just simple obedience and faith in Him.... By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves the mountains. You just P.U.S.H.!
When everything seems to go wrong,... P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down,... P.U.S.H.!
When people don't react the way you think they should,... P.U.S.H.!
When your money is short and the bills are due,... P.U.S.H.!
When you want to curse them out for whatever the reason,... P.U.S.H.!
When people just don't understand you,... P.U.S.H.!
P.U.S.H. = Pray Until Something Happens!
As I read posts today and for the last few days, I have noticed that a lot of us are becoming discouraged. A lot of us feel that nothing is happening and we are failing or wasting our time.
Look at where you were a year ago and look at the pain you were in compared to now. Yes some days are hard, but I don't know about the rest of you, but I am much more functional now than when my H first left. When he left I couldn't move. I was immobilized in pain. My soul had left me. I was hurt and angry. There was no love in my or so I thought. I just want to make him come home no matter what.
I was getting close to God but nothing like I am now. I wanted God to fix him and bring him home. I was angry with God and my H. I felt victimized crushed. It was horrible.
I am not saying that I don't have these days any more, but they don't last as long I know where my relief and peace comes from.
I have strengthened my relationship with God. In fact for the first time I have and intimate and personal relationship with ABBA.
I love my husband more today than the day we got married. I have no animosity towards the OW. I was just saying to God today that I know in the flesh that I shold be happy or rejoice that she is sad and hurt, but I can't. I ask God to speak to her and give her peace.
I pray for my husband which I never did before. I do not try to force him ( at least not as much as before). I have feelings towards the baby that was just born.
It is amazing where I am today vs where I was two years ago.
So God is working and if we stoped and looked. We will see it. So all this reminded me of a story I once read. Here it is. I hope it helps.
The Rock / P.U.S.H.
A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light and the Savior appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. This the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore, and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.
Seeing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, the devil decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the man's weary mind "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't budged. Why kill yourself over this? You are never going to move it." This gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. "Why kill myself over this?" he thought. "I'll just put in my time, giving just the minimum effort and that will be good enough." And that is what he planned to do until one day he decided to make it a matter of prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.
"Lord" he said, "I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?"
The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to me, with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?
Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. This you have done. I, my friend, will now move the rock."
At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when actually what God wants is just simple obedience and faith in Him.... By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves the mountains. You just P.U.S.H.!
When everything seems to go wrong,... P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down,... P.U.S.H.!
When people don't react the way you think they should,... P.U.S.H.!
When your money is short and the bills are due,... P.U.S.H.!
When you want to curse them out for whatever the reason,... P.U.S.H.!
When people just don't understand you,... P.U.S.H.!
P.U.S.H. = Pray Until Something Happens!
