Yesterday as I was researching the devils lies and and Gods Truths I came across 1 Timothy 6:10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. I was in shock. I have said this and thought this hundreds of times in my life, but had left out "for the love of". That changed everything. I had always said Money is the root of all evil. This was a life altering moment.
As I was growing up I witnessed family members do, and say horrible things about money. Relationships were lost because of it, threats were always made about people being removed from wills. People had fits of rage against one another about it. There were an unbelievable amount of secrets about money; who stole from whom, next plan of attack, who borrowed what and never paid it back. There were lies, black male, theft, bribery etc...When I was about 10 I said these words;
"I hate money, when I grow up I don't want to be rich, I don't want money, it hurts everyone"
I said this over and over and have thought it over and over. That statement seemed to have a lasting impact on my perception, use of, fear of, and my feelings towards and about money. By hating money I gave it power. I created situations in my own life of poverty, obsessions with to much money, not enough money, fear of lack, fear of to much. Money became an idol. Not that I wanted to be rich, but the thoughts could consume me. I have never been jealous of wealthy people, I kind of pitied them.
Confession Time
I know without any doubt I need to give this over to the Lord. While journaling today I ask The Lord to reveal any wounds, unforgivness, or any unrepentant sin regarding money. I ended up with pages of situations where I had been stolen from, situations where someone had chosen money over my relationship with them, someone did not pay child support, someone tried to control me by money, etc... I am actually surprised how much came out. I also confessed every sin the Lord put on my heart that I had committed. I repented, and ask forgiveness. I then went through every situation of someone hurting me because of money and forgave them, ask The Lord to heal those wounds and prayed for them.
Generational curses were revealed. There has been an obsession with money in my family regardless weather it was wealth or poverty. I broke that curse between all generations.
I believe Mark 10:25 It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.†I also believe Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. The Lord has put some very wealthy people in my life lately, that are true believers, truly loving, generous, God fearing people. He is reshaping my perception.
Mark 10:17-21 17 As Jesus started on his way, a man ran up to him and fell on his knees before him. “Good teacher,†he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?â€
18 “Why do you call me good?†Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone. 19 You know the commandments: ‘You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not steal, you shall not give false testimony, you shall not defraud, honor your father and mother.’[d]â€
20 “Teacher,†he declared, “all these I have kept since I was a boy.â€
21 Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,†he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.â€
Jesus did not ask everyone to give up their wealth to follow him, only the man who LOVED his money, sadly enough the man could not. The Lord has ask me to give up the idol of money. I give it all to You Lord. Every cent that comes in, every cent that goes out, every thought, word, behavior, and attitude. Lord I ask for Your strength, Your guidance as I repent and change my ways. I can not serve two masters Matthew 6:24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.
Lord I thank You so much for leading me through this, I ask for Your strength to make the changes You want me to make. Thank You Jesus Amen
As I was growing up I witnessed family members do, and say horrible things about money. Relationships were lost because of it, threats were always made about people being removed from wills. People had fits of rage against one another about it. There were an unbelievable amount of secrets about money; who stole from whom, next plan of attack, who borrowed what and never paid it back. There were lies, black male, theft, bribery etc...When I was about 10 I said these words;
"I hate money, when I grow up I don't want to be rich, I don't want money, it hurts everyone"
I said this over and over and have thought it over and over. That statement seemed to have a lasting impact on my perception, use of, fear of, and my feelings towards and about money. By hating money I gave it power. I created situations in my own life of poverty, obsessions with to much money, not enough money, fear of lack, fear of to much. Money became an idol. Not that I wanted to be rich, but the thoughts could consume me. I have never been jealous of wealthy people, I kind of pitied them.
Confession Time
- I am extremely irresponsible with money. I forget to pay bills even when I have the money, causing hundreds of dollars in late fees
- I have bounced checks recently because I did not learn about the bank policy on floating deposits for a certain amount of days, and not paying checks I have written, Hundreds of dollars in bank fees
- I did not file taxes on time so now I am paying late fees and penalties
- I do not open mail if I fear it is financial
- I procrastinate filling paid medical bills for reimbursement
I know without any doubt I need to give this over to the Lord. While journaling today I ask The Lord to reveal any wounds, unforgivness, or any unrepentant sin regarding money. I ended up with pages of situations where I had been stolen from, situations where someone had chosen money over my relationship with them, someone did not pay child support, someone tried to control me by money, etc... I am actually surprised how much came out. I also confessed every sin the Lord put on my heart that I had committed. I repented, and ask forgiveness. I then went through every situation of someone hurting me because of money and forgave them, ask The Lord to heal those wounds and prayed for them.
Generational curses were revealed. There has been an obsession with money in my family regardless weather it was wealth or poverty. I broke that curse between all generations.
I believe Mark 10:25 It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.†I also believe Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. The Lord has put some very wealthy people in my life lately, that are true believers, truly loving, generous, God fearing people. He is reshaping my perception.
Mark 10:17-21 17 As Jesus started on his way, a man ran up to him and fell on his knees before him. “Good teacher,†he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?â€
18 “Why do you call me good?†Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone. 19 You know the commandments: ‘You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not steal, you shall not give false testimony, you shall not defraud, honor your father and mother.’[d]â€
20 “Teacher,†he declared, “all these I have kept since I was a boy.â€
21 Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,†he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.â€
Jesus did not ask everyone to give up their wealth to follow him, only the man who LOVED his money, sadly enough the man could not. The Lord has ask me to give up the idol of money. I give it all to You Lord. Every cent that comes in, every cent that goes out, every thought, word, behavior, and attitude. Lord I ask for Your strength, Your guidance as I repent and change my ways. I can not serve two masters Matthew 6:24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.
Lord I thank You so much for leading me through this, I ask for Your strength to make the changes You want me to make. Thank You Jesus Amen
