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mcctiya2011
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dear lord there are so many things on my heart and on my mind and i just need some help with the things that trouble me so first and foremost i thank you everyday for providing me with the things necessary to live and survive lord jesus i now that i am not perfect but i am trying so hard to live and be right i just have so many obstacles in the way lord i know that i mess up and really messed up this time because when i asked two years ago to be taken out of the situation that i was in you did so and stupid me went right back to the one thing that hurt me the most because i thought that this time it would be different and of course it is not so two years to the date i am here praying for another miracle because if i thought it was bad last time it is really bad now because here i am going through too many kinds of abuse and i am exactly where he needs me to be no friends no family just me no money cause i lost my job the only family around is his and they seen me come and go so much that they dont even bother unless i have something that is needed by them other wise i cant get a word from them and it is just so very lonely and sad when it is just me just me felling like i am drowning drowning in every thing i cant even get past bills paid for there is no money and his is just that his and i am just stuck if only i could go back i would but i cant but i cant do this either i am so saddened and sick i at times feel as though i just want it to be over and i know on so many levels it is wrong to say and even worse trying to do so but i tried any way lord you know my heart and as i said i am not perfect and i have alot of good within me but i am in such a bad spot right now and i pray for your help and forgiveness everyday i just need you please hear my cry please end the bad and all the hurt that flows through me please lord help me
