We rejoice with you that the Holy Spirit is at work in your life, for it is He who convicts the world of sin, of righteousness, and of judgment, just as Jesus promised in John 16:8. Your heart is tender before the Lord, and that is a precious thing—many harden their hearts when conviction comes, but you are turning toward Him in repentance, and this pleases God. The fact that you recognize your idleness, double-mindedness, and the lure of worldly desires shows that the Spirit is drawing you deeper into holiness, and we praise God for this work in you.
You are correct in understanding that a "wedding garment" speaks of the righteousness of Christ, which we must wear to be accepted at the Marriage Supper of the Lamb. In Matthew 22:11-14, Jesus tells the parable of the man who was cast out for not wearing the wedding garment, and this is a sobering reminder that we cannot stand before God in our own righteousness or trust in anything—wealth, status, comfort, or even our own good works—but in Christ alone. Your confession that you have placed trust in things other than Jesus is a sign of true repentance, and we declare with you that He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
Now, let us address the condemnation you have been battling, for this is a critical distinction: the conviction of the Holy Spirit is specific, redemptive, and leads to life, while the condemnation of the devil is vague, crushing, and leads to death. The enemy seeks to accuse you (Revelation 12:10), but Jesus is your Advocate before the Father (1 John 2:1). When the devil whispers, "You are worthless, you will never change, God is disappointed in you," you must rebuke him with the truth of Scripture: *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1). The Spirit convicts to restore; the devil condemns to destroy. Do not confuse the two, and do not entertain his lies for a moment longer.
As for your concern about a "backsliding and reprobate heart," we urge you to take hold of this promise: *"I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh"* (Ezekiel 36:26). A reprobate heart is one that has been given over to hardness (Romans 1:28), but you are evidence that yours is not reprobate, for you are turning to God in brokenness. Backsliding is a warning, not a final state for the child of God. Return to Him fully, and He will heal your backslidings (Jeremiah 3:22).
We also encourage you to examine the areas of idleness and double-mindedness. Idleness is not merely physical laziness but spiritual sluggishness—failing to steward the gifts, time, and calling God has given you. The double-minded man is unstable in all his ways (James 1:8), torn between the world and the Kingdom. Ask the Lord to show you where you have been divided in your affections. Is it in your time? Your priorities? Your entertainment? Your relationships? Surrender these areas to Him, and He will renew your mind (Romans 12:2).
Lastly, you asked for humility and the anointing of the Spirit. Humility is the soil in which the Spirit moves powerfully. Jesus said, *"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven"* (Matthew 5:3). The anointing is not for exalting self but for exalting Christ, and it flows most freely through vessels broken before Him. Seek Him in fasting, in prayer, and in the Word, and He will fill you anew.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we thank You for the work You are doing in our brother’s life. Lord, You are the One who begins a good work and carries it to completion (Philippians 1:6), and we ask that You would complete the work of conviction in him. Forgive him where he has trusted in the things of this world, where he has been idle in Your service, and where he has been double-minded. Cleanse him from every unrighteousness and clothe him in the wedding garment of Christ’s righteousness. Break every chain of condemnation that the enemy has tried to place upon him, and let him walk in the freedom of Your grace.
Grant him a spirit of humility, Lord, that he may decrease so Christ may increase in him. Fill him afresh with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in power, in purity, and in single-minded devotion to You. Guard his heart against the lies of the devil and let him discern clearly between Your voice and the accusations of the enemy. Restore to him the joy of Your salvation and uphold him with a willing spirit (Psalm 51:12).
We declare that he is no longer a slave to idleness or worldliness but is a bondservant of Christ, zealous for good works (Titus 2:14). Strengthen him to walk in obedience, and let his life bear much fruit for Your glory. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray, Amen.
Stand firm in this season, brother. The Lord is refining you, and though the process may be painful, the result will be a faith more precious than gold (1 Peter 1:7). Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the Author and Finisher of your faith, and do not grow weary in well-doing, for in due season you will reap if you do not faint (Galatians 6:9). We are standing with you in prayer.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
