Pebble
Prayer Partner
I want to begin by thanking everyone who prayed for me previously and updates from the last post. I have over ### weeks to clean the apartment to the leasing company’s standards. Between the paralysis, executive dysfunction, and shame, I knew I couldn’t do it alone and didn't want to leave anything to chance.
I reached out to some companies to hire to cover it. One got back to me immediately, and it felt right, but the price was more than I imagined. I want to think that God put them in my path for a reason. Due to medical debt, I'm currently being sued for, I knew I wouldn’t be approved for a loan, so they were willing to work with me. I've paid for half and will pay off the rest every ### weeks. I am grateful for their patience and hope to cover all of my bills since the total price is like ### months' rent. I know all I can do is lay this at God’s feet and trust that he hasn’t covered me, but it is much easier said than done.
I have been praying constantly to be released from other barriers so that I can allow them to do what they need to and that the apartment will approve the finished result. I am also worried because they timed it perfectly so that it aligns with the current lease ending, and I'm worried that no matter what happens, even if I do pass inspection, they may not grant another lease, and then I won't have a place to live or money to find a new one.
I am still dealing with issues at work; I have proof that what is being presented isn’t the truth, but it's me against a duplicitous higher-up that only shows that side to me. I am praying that I find another job that will accommodate my neurodivergence and also allow me to do my job instead of letting a manager run unchecked. I am trying to gather evidence to protect myself but also ensure I am not resentful of other team members not being treated the same way nor rising to the bait when they follow the manager's tone and delivery.
I want to work in my field where I know I have talents, do not bring the stress of work home, and have the energy to do what I need to do to take care of myself. And at this point, I even have a place to call my home. I have been through so much in the last ### years, and I just know God hasn’t brought me this far to leave me. I continue to lean on him, but this anxiousness and stress are becoming a physical burden that leaves me exhausted and fighting depression.
Thank you all for your continued prayers. At this point, I do not know if a blessing or miracle is needed, but I ask for God’s continued guidance so that I will be able to hear His voice and be at peace knowing that I am doing His will. That I will come out of this with a job where I am treated like a human being with the rights afforded to me in my job description, my abode and ability to get the medical attention I need. I’m not sure how that happens, but I pray it does.
I reached out to some companies to hire to cover it. One got back to me immediately, and it felt right, but the price was more than I imagined. I want to think that God put them in my path for a reason. Due to medical debt, I'm currently being sued for, I knew I wouldn’t be approved for a loan, so they were willing to work with me. I've paid for half and will pay off the rest every ### weeks. I am grateful for their patience and hope to cover all of my bills since the total price is like ### months' rent. I know all I can do is lay this at God’s feet and trust that he hasn’t covered me, but it is much easier said than done.
I have been praying constantly to be released from other barriers so that I can allow them to do what they need to and that the apartment will approve the finished result. I am also worried because they timed it perfectly so that it aligns with the current lease ending, and I'm worried that no matter what happens, even if I do pass inspection, they may not grant another lease, and then I won't have a place to live or money to find a new one.
I am still dealing with issues at work; I have proof that what is being presented isn’t the truth, but it's me against a duplicitous higher-up that only shows that side to me. I am praying that I find another job that will accommodate my neurodivergence and also allow me to do my job instead of letting a manager run unchecked. I am trying to gather evidence to protect myself but also ensure I am not resentful of other team members not being treated the same way nor rising to the bait when they follow the manager's tone and delivery.
I want to work in my field where I know I have talents, do not bring the stress of work home, and have the energy to do what I need to do to take care of myself. And at this point, I even have a place to call my home. I have been through so much in the last ### years, and I just know God hasn’t brought me this far to leave me. I continue to lean on him, but this anxiousness and stress are becoming a physical burden that leaves me exhausted and fighting depression.
Thank you all for your continued prayers. At this point, I do not know if a blessing or miracle is needed, but I ask for God’s continued guidance so that I will be able to hear His voice and be at peace knowing that I am doing His will. That I will come out of this with a job where I am treated like a human being with the rights afforded to me in my job description, my abode and ability to get the medical attention I need. I’m not sure how that happens, but I pray it does.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
