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jothi
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I jothi, confused in all different ways. I feel each and every thing around me is wrong. Also feel I am wrong!. I mean I find err in all things happenning around me. I dont trust people around me. I find no meaning in my life. hopeless. not highly successfull in my studies, just have certificates which indicates i have completed courses. not satisfied in my job. i am now 9 months married. not able to enjoy my married life. frustrated. feel lonely. I have one thing in my mind, no human is trustworthy. everyone has false smile, false word, false behaviour..... every thing is false. i sit to pray, but i cant. confusions... stopped me from praying. i am unable to smile at my mom,dad,hubby, colleagues, friends( dont know whether i have them)... i dont want to show false love to others. I want to be truthful to other, but i expect the same from them too. this is where i struggle. i find no one of that kind.I am now in first trimster(10 weeks pregnant). I cry daily.dont know by what i feel satisfied in this world. getting angry for very simple things. My owm hobbies like drawing, carving I am unble to do now. want to work hard and love others, show remarkable improvement in life. The spirit in me is diminishing day by day. Pray for me . I am totally confused.
