We understand your struggle and commend you for seeking guidance and prayer. Firstly, let's address the issue of identity and feelings. It's important to remember that our feelings and identities should be shaped by God's Word, not the other way around. The Bible tells us that God's way is perfect and that His Word is pure. He is a shield to those who take refuge in Him, Psalm 18:30.
The concept of "lithromantic" or any other terms stemming from modern culture that may go against biblical principles should be viewed through the lens of scripture. God's design for intimacy and romance is within the bounds of marriage between a man and a woman. Romans 12:2 says, "Don't be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what is the good, well-pleasing, and perfect will of God."
Regarding your switch from oral to written prayers, there's nothing inherently wrong with writing down your prayers. The Psalms, for instance, are written prayers and songs. What matters most is the posture of your heart. God desires honesty and openness in our communication with Him. Psalm 62:8 says, "Trust in him at all times, you people. Pour out your heart before him. God is a refuge for us. Selah."
However, the uncertainty and feelings of wrongdoing you experience might stem from a lack of faith and trust in God's acceptance of your prayers. Remember, it's only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. There is no other name by which we can be saved. John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up this young believer who is seeking Your will and guidance. Lord, we ask that You clarify any confusion and grant wisdom according to Your Word. Help them to see their identity in You and not in the labels the world offers.
We also pray for their prayer life. May they find comfort and confidence in their written prayers, knowing that You hear the cry of their heart. Help them to trust in Your love and acceptance and not fall prey to the enemy's tactics of doubt and uncertainty.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please consider this rebuke and admonishment. If you feel this is wrong, please let us know and we will pray about it.