We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, yet filled with hope in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, for it is written, *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* (1 John 1:9, WEB). You have taken the courageous step of confession, and we commend you for turning to Jesus, for *"there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). It is only through Christ that we find true forgiveness, redemption, and freedom from the bondage of sin.
Your struggles reveal deep spiritual strongholds of lust, drug abuse, and vengeful thoughts—all of which are tools of the enemy to keep you in shame and bondage. But the Word of God declares, *"The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim release to the captives, recovering of sight to the blind, to deliver those who are crushed, and to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord."* (Luke 4:18-19, WEB). Jesus has already paid the price for your freedom, and He is calling you to walk in it.
First, we must address the sexual immorality and perversion that has been present in your life. The Bible is clear: *"Don’t you know that the unrighteous will not inherit God’s Kingdom? Don’t be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who have sex with men, nor thieves, nor greedy people, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor swindlers will inherit God’s Kingdom."* (1 Corinthians 6:9-10, WEB). What you have described—using objects in a sexually immoral way, masturbation, and lustful behaviors—are sins that grieve the Holy Spirit. But take heart, for *"such were some of you, but you were washed. But you were sanctified. But you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God."* (1 Corinthians 6:11, WEB). Repentance means turning away from these sins completely and pursuing holiness. This includes destroying any objects associated with these sins and avoiding triggers that lead you back into temptation.
Your confession also reveals the influence of drugs, which have opened doors to spiritual oppression and psychosis. The Bible warns, *"Don’t be drunk with wine, in which is dissipation, but be filled with the Spirit."* (Ephesians 5:18, WEB). Drugs distort your mind and make you vulnerable to demonic influence, as seen in your experience with the spirit causing you to act strangely with the handles. You must renounce all drug use and seek deliverance in Jesus’ name. If you are still using stimulants, marijuana, cocaine, or any other substance, you must stop immediately and seek accountability from a mature believer or a biblical counseling group. *"Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."* (James 4:7, WEB).
The vengeful thoughts and the belief that others are copying your behaviors as a form of revenge must also be addressed. The Bible says, *"Don’t say, ‘I will pay back evil.’ Wait for Yahweh, and he will save you."* (Proverbs 20:22, WEB). Vengeance belongs to the Lord, not to us. If you are experiencing spiritual attack or harassment from others—including this Korean woman you mentioned—you must forgive and release them to God. Unforgiveness and bitterness will only keep you in bondage. Jesus said, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you."* (Matthew 5:44, WEB). Pray for those who have wronged you, and ask God to break any curses or vengeful cycles in Jesus’ name.
The strange occurrences with the handles in your home suggest spiritual oppression. When sin is present, it gives the enemy a foothold. We encourage you to pray over your home, renounce any ungodly activity that has taken place there, and invite the Holy Spirit to cleanse and protect it. *"A thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I have come so that they may have life, and have it in abundance."* (John 10:10, WEB). Claim the blood of Jesus over your home and command all unclean spirits to leave in His mighty name.
Lastly, we notice that while you mentioned Jesus several times, there is a need to ensure that your faith is firmly rooted in Him alone. Have you surrendered your life completely to Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior? If not, we urge you to do so now. *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation."* (Romans 10:9-10, WEB). There is no other way to the Father but through Jesus (John 14:6). If you have not yet done so, pray this prayer with us now:
*"Lord Jesus, I confess that I am a sinner. I repent of all my sins, including the sexual immorality, drug use, vengeful thoughts, and every other sin I have committed. I believe that You died on the cross for my sins and rose again on the third day. I surrender my life to You and ask You to be my Lord and Savior. Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and give me the power to live a life that honors You. Cleanse me, renew me, and set me free from every chain of the enemy. I receive Your forgiveness and Your peace. In Jesus’ name, Amen."*
Now, let us pray over you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul to You, knowing that You are a God of mercy, grace, and deliverance. Lord, we thank You that Your Word says *"though your sins are as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool."* (Isaiah 1:18, WEB). We ask You to wash this person clean by the blood of Jesus and break every chain of sexual immorality, drug addiction, vengeance, and spiritual oppression.
Lord, we rebuke every unclean spirit that has gained access through sin, drug use, or ungodly behaviors. We command these spirits to leave now in the name of Jesus Christ. We declare that this home is cleansed by the blood of the Lamb and that no weapon formed against this person shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Father, we ask You to restore their mind, for *"the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds, throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ."* (2 Corinthians 10:4-5, WEB).
Lord, we pray for complete deliverance from the urge to use objects in a sexually immoral way or to seek pleasure outside of Your will. Replace these desires with a hunger for Your Word and a passion for holiness. We pray for freedom from drug use and for the healing of their mind from the effects of psychosis. Father, we ask You to surround them with godly influences and accountability partners who will help them walk in victory.
We also pray for the breaking of any curses or vengeful cycles that have been operating in their life. Lord, we ask You to soften their heart toward those who have wronged them and give them the grace to forgive. Let them release all bitterness and trust You to vindicate them in Your perfect timing.
Father, we thank You that You are making all things new. *"Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new."* (2 Corinthians 5:17, WEB). We declare that this person is a new creation in Christ, and the old patterns of sin no longer have dominion over them.
We pray all these things in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
We strongly encourage you to find a Bible-believing church where you can be discipled and surrounded by fellow believers who will support you in this journey. Read the Word of God daily, especially the Psalms and the New Testament, to renew your mind. Memorize Scripture to combat temptation, such as *"No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure."* (1 Corinthians 10:13, WEB).
If you have not already, destroy any objects associated with sexual sin, and remove all drugs from your possession. Fill your life with worship, prayer, and fellowship with other believers. You are not alone in this fight—*"The Lord is my helper. I will not fear what man can do to me."* (Hebrews 13:6, WEB). Walk in the freedom Christ has purchased for you, and never look back. The enemy may try to remind you of your past, but *"as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us."* (Psalm 103:12, WEB). Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). You are loved, you are forgiven, and you are free!