We come before the Lord with heavy hearts after reading your cry, and we are deeply grieved by the despair and spiritual turmoil you are expressing. First, we must address the most urgent matter: your request for death. This is not God’s will for you, and we must firmly rebuke this thought in the name of Jesus Christ. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), but Jesus came that you may have life, and have it abundantly. Suicide is a lie from the pit of hell, and we command every spirit of death, despair, and hopelessness to flee from you now in Jesus’ name. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your life has purpose in Christ. The Lord declares in Jeremiah 29:11, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."*
We also must address the anger, bitterness, and calls for vengeance in your words. While we understand your pain, the Bible commands us not to repay evil for evil or seek revenge, but to overcome evil with good (Romans 12:17-21). Vengeance belongs to the Lord (Deuteronomy 32:35), and He will judge righteously. Instead, we are called to forgive as Christ forgave us (Colossians 3:13). Holding onto bitterness will only poison your soul and give the enemy a foothold. We urge you to release these feelings to God and ask Him to fill you with His peace and love. Pray for those who persecute you (Matthew 5:44), even if it feels impossible, and trust that God sees your suffering and will act on your behalf in His perfect timing.
Your mention of fasting reveals a deep spiritual hunger, but we must caution you against extreme or self-imposed fasts that are not led by the Holy Spirit. Fasting is a biblical practice meant to draw us closer to God, not to prove our spirituality or punish ourselves. Jesus warned against fasting for the wrong reasons in Matthew 6:16-18, *"Moreover when you fast, don’t be like the hypocrites, with sad faces. For they disfigure their faces, that they may be seen by men to be fasting. Most certainly I tell you, they have received their reward. But you, when you fast, anoint your head, and wash your face; so that you are not seen by men to be fasting, but by your Father who is in secret, and your Father, who sees in secret, will reward you."* A 10-day fast without food *or* water is dangerous and not biblically commanded. The Daniel fast, which you mentioned, is a partial fast focused on vegetables and water, and even that should be approached with wisdom and prayer. We encourage you to seek God’s guidance on how He wants you to fast, rather than setting extreme goals that could harm your body, which is the temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20).
We are also deeply concerned by your focus on "religious attacks," "demonic control," and "intermingling spirits." While spiritual warfare is real (Ephesians 6:12), we must be careful not to attribute every struggle to demonic activity or persecution from others. Sometimes, our battles are within our own minds, and the enemy uses fear, anxiety, and paranoia to distort our perception. The Bible tells us in 2 Timothy 1:7, *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control."* If you are feeling overwhelmed by spiritual oppression, we urge you to put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) and stand firm in His truth. But also consider whether some of these struggles might be rooted in mental or emotional distress that requires godly counsel or medical attention. There is no shame in seeking help—God often uses doctors, counselors, and brothers and sisters in Christ to bring healing.
Your mention of "mimicry" and "overlapping effects" while reading the Bible suggests a heightened sensitivity to your surroundings. This could be a sign of spiritual discernment, but it could also be a distraction from the enemy or even an indication of an anxious mind. We encourage you to find a quiet place to spend time with the Lord, perhaps early in the morning or late at night when distractions are minimal. Psalm 46:10 says, *"Be still, and know that I am God."* If outside noises are overwhelming, consider using earplugs or soft worship music to help you focus. The goal is to hear God’s voice, not to achieve a perfect environment.
We also notice that you thank Jesus for your salvation, and we rejoice with you in this! Salvation is the greatest gift we could ever receive, and it is only through the name of Jesus that we are saved (Acts 4:12). However, we sense a mix of gratitude and deep frustration in your words. If you have placed your faith in Christ, you are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17), and the old has passed away. Yet, the Christian life is a journey of sanctification, and we all face trials that refine our faith. James 1:2-4 tells us, *"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you fall into various temptations, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. Let endurance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing."* Your struggles are not in vain—God is using them to shape you into the image of Christ.
Now, let us pray for you with the authority and love of Christ:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul to You, knowing that You see their pain, their frustration, and their deep longing for You. Lord, we rebuke every spirit of suicide, death, despair, and hopelessness that has taken root in their mind. We command these spirits to flee in the name of Jesus Christ, for You have plans to prosper them and not to harm them (Jeremiah 29:11). Father, fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7) and remind them that their life is precious in Your sight.
Lord, we ask You to break the power of bitterness, anger, and vengeance in their heart. Soften their heart toward those who have hurt them, and help them to release these burdens to You. Teach them to forgive as You have forgiven them, and protect them from the enemy’s lies that would keep them bound in resentment. Surround them with Your love and remind them that You are their defender (Psalm 18:2).
Father, we pray for clarity and wisdom regarding their fasting. Show them how You desire them to seek You in this season. If there are any unhealthy patterns or extreme measures, convict them by Your Spirit and lead them into a balanced, life-giving relationship with You. Remind them that You desire mercy, not sacrifice (Hosea 6:6), and that their body is Your temple.
We pray against any spiritual oppression or distraction that has caused confusion or fear. Lord, if there are any strongholds in their mind, we ask You to tear them down by the power of Your Word (2 Corinthians 10:4-5). If they are struggling with anxiety, paranoia, or mental distress, lead them to the help they need—whether through godly counsel, medical support, or the encouragement of brothers and sisters in Christ. Surround them with Your angels (Psalm 91:11) and let them know they are not alone.
Lord, we ask You to speak to them clearly as they read Your Word. Drown out the noise of the enemy and the distractions of the world, and let them hear Your still, small voice (1 Kings 19:12). Renew their mind with Your truth (Romans 12:2) and help them to fix their eyes on You, the author and perfecter of their faith (Hebrews 12:2).
Finally, Father, we pray for their protection from any form of persecution or sabotage. If there are people in their life who are causing harm, we ask You to either change their hearts or remove their influence. Give our brother/sister discernment to know how to respond and the strength to stand firm in Your truth. Let them experience Your presence in such a powerful way that they know, beyond any doubt, that You are with them and You are for them.
We thank You, Lord, for the gift of salvation that they have received through Jesus Christ. Remind them daily of the hope they have in Him and the victory that is already theirs because of the cross. Fill them with Your joy, Your peace, and Your purpose.
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
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We strongly encourage you to reach out to a trusted pastor, Christian counselor, or mature believer who can walk with you through this season. You do not have to carry this burden alone. If you are feeling overwhelmed or in danger, please seek help immediately—your life is precious to God, and He has a purpose for you. We also urge you to spend time in worship and prayer, focusing on the goodness of God rather than the attacks of the enemy. Play worship music, read the Psalms aloud, and declare the truth of God’s Word over your life. You are loved, you are seen, and you are not forgotten. Cling to Jesus, for He is your hope and your deliverer.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
