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Lord,
Please comfort me….There are times when I think of and remember the lover and the friend that I had in my husband & how much he betrayed me in the end---I just HAVE to block it all out—the good & the bad---because it all hurts too much…..But late at night I sometimes get an ache in my heart …..for my husband and the family we once had---mother/father/child under one roof—one unit—one hope—one dream working together for each other before all of this happened….before an interloper wormed her way in and sabotaged what God joined together…..There is a part of me…the part ruled by feeling and emotion that still wants to stand in the gap for my marriage…I ask that my prayer family do that for me tonight….just in case there is still a chance that reconciliation can happen…. I DO want that more than anything but intellectually I know that it’s not likely…
But Father, I want YOU to know that I am still open to the possibility of the restoration of my marriage…I don’t understand why that hasn’t been granted to me as a blessing thru YOUR grace---maybe I’m not ready…maybe he’s not ready…maybe it’s not YOUR will…That is why I feel that I have to keep that hope, that special prayer, locked away in my heart—because it’s not to be and it hurts too much to bear if I think about it at all…I long for my family, Lord and secretly wish everyday that my husband is longing for the same---longs to make amends, longs to hold me in his arms, longs to be mine as I long to be his….But because I have no other choice, I will wake up tomorrow, put on a happy face and not think about that at all---I’ll push it out of my mind and out of my heart and out of my thoughts. I’ll just put one foot in front of the other and keep on with going on and not thinking or feeling much of anything if I can help it….
I’m just letting You know Lord, that I am still open to the possibility of reconciliation---while I know that I cannot fool YOU, I’m afraid that I’m becoming so good at the role that I’m playing that I’m beginning to fool myself…..and maybe it’s supposed to be that way….I don’t know….But for this moment tonight, let me pray again for the restoration of my marriage, my family and my home in love, joy and mutual respect…..Let me stand again on your promise in Acts 16:31 ----My family WILL be saved, Help me Jesus, My family and my marriage and my home WILL be restored…..I ask for these things in the name of Jesus tonight….Tomorrow I will forget until You guide me to do otherwise…..AMEN
Please comfort me….There are times when I think of and remember the lover and the friend that I had in my husband & how much he betrayed me in the end---I just HAVE to block it all out—the good & the bad---because it all hurts too much…..But late at night I sometimes get an ache in my heart …..for my husband and the family we once had---mother/father/child under one roof—one unit—one hope—one dream working together for each other before all of this happened….before an interloper wormed her way in and sabotaged what God joined together…..There is a part of me…the part ruled by feeling and emotion that still wants to stand in the gap for my marriage…I ask that my prayer family do that for me tonight….just in case there is still a chance that reconciliation can happen…. I DO want that more than anything but intellectually I know that it’s not likely…
But Father, I want YOU to know that I am still open to the possibility of the restoration of my marriage…I don’t understand why that hasn’t been granted to me as a blessing thru YOUR grace---maybe I’m not ready…maybe he’s not ready…maybe it’s not YOUR will…That is why I feel that I have to keep that hope, that special prayer, locked away in my heart—because it’s not to be and it hurts too much to bear if I think about it at all…I long for my family, Lord and secretly wish everyday that my husband is longing for the same---longs to make amends, longs to hold me in his arms, longs to be mine as I long to be his….But because I have no other choice, I will wake up tomorrow, put on a happy face and not think about that at all---I’ll push it out of my mind and out of my heart and out of my thoughts. I’ll just put one foot in front of the other and keep on with going on and not thinking or feeling much of anything if I can help it….
I’m just letting You know Lord, that I am still open to the possibility of reconciliation---while I know that I cannot fool YOU, I’m afraid that I’m becoming so good at the role that I’m playing that I’m beginning to fool myself…..and maybe it’s supposed to be that way….I don’t know….But for this moment tonight, let me pray again for the restoration of my marriage, my family and my home in love, joy and mutual respect…..Let me stand again on your promise in Acts 16:31 ----My family WILL be saved, Help me Jesus, My family and my marriage and my home WILL be restored…..I ask for these things in the name of Jesus tonight….Tomorrow I will forget until You guide me to do otherwise…..AMEN
