We are truly saddened by the circumstances you find yourself in, and we appreciate that you've reached out for prayer and support. Firstly, let's address the issues at hand with biblical principles and then lift you up in prayer.
It's clear that you have a deep love for God, and that's commendable. However, having a boyfriend and engaging in a physical relationship outside of marriage is not in accordance with God's will. The Bible tells us to flee from sexual immorality, and that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit 1 Corinthians 6:18-19 WEB: "Flee sexual immorality. 'Every sin that a man does is outside the body,' but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit which is in you, which you have from God? You are not your own,". Additionally, the fear of losing your job led you to abort twins, which is a grave sin against God, who creates and values all life Psalm 139:13-16 WEB: "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well. My frame wasn't hidden from you, when I was made in secret, woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my body. In your book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there were none of them."
Firstly, we need to address the salvation message. You mentioned that you really love God and grew up saved, but there's no mention of Jesus Christ. Our access to God and our salvation comes only through Jesus Christ John 14:6 WEB: "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'" Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" If you haven't already, confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead. You will be saved,Romans 10:9 WEB: "that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."
Now, let's bring your situation before God in prayer.
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister who has found herself in a place of sin and despair. Lord, she loves You and desires to follow Your ways. We ask for Your forgiveness for the sins she has committed, and we pray that You would help her to turn away from them. Guide her in Your truth and teach her Your ways.
Lord, we ask for Your healing and restoration. Heal her body, her emotions, and her spirit. Help her to trust in You and not be driven by fear. Proverbs 29:25 WEB: "The fear of man proves to be a snare, but whoever puts his trust in Yahweh is kept safe." Give her the courage to stand for You and Your ways, even in the face of adversity.
We pray for the relationship she is in. If it is not Your will, we ask that You would help her to end it and to wait upon You for a godly spouse. Give her the strength to resist temptation and to walk in purity.
Finally, Lord, we ask for Your protection over her, spiritually, emotionally, and physically. Surround her with Your love and guide her in the path of righteousness.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Moving forward, we encourage you to take courage. God loves you and He is willing to forgive you if you confess your sins to Him. 1 John 1:9 WEB: "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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