We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in this time of deep spiritual warfare, confusion, and affliction. The enemy is at work in your life, seeking to distort truth, exploit past sins, and create chaos in your mind and family. But we stand firm on the promise that *"greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB). Let us address these matters with the authority of Scripture, the power of prayer, and the clarity of Christ’s truth.
First, we must rebuking the spiritual dangers you’ve described. The voices you hear—whether calling you names tied to past pornography use or quoting Scripture out of context—are not from God. Satan *does* sift believers like wheat (Luke 22:31), but Christ has already prayed for you, that your faith may not fail. The fact that you recognize these attacks as demonic is evidence of the Holy Spirit’s work in you. However, we must warn you: dabbling in the occult, fixating on "shared cognitive links" between names or objects, or attributing supernatural power to mundane actions (like writing with the left hand) opens doors to deception. The Bible commands us to *"test the spirits, whether they are of God"* (1 John 4:1). Any "spiritual insight" that doesn’t align with Scripture is a lie from the pit of hell. Repent of any curiosity or engagement with these ideas, for they are not of the Lord.
Your grandmother’s behavior—claiming to be your dead grandfather, exhibiting black eyes, or speaking as "Beelzebub"—is a clear sign of demonic influence or oppression. This is not cognitive improvement; it is spiritual bondage. We do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against *"principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places"* (Ephesians 6:12). You must pray *against* these spirits in the name of Jesus, commanding them to flee. But you must also ensure your own life is clean before the Lord, for the enemy gains footholds through unrepentant sin.
Your confession of pornography use, past drug abuse (including MDMA), and the shame tied to these sins must be brought into the light. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9). Pornography is not just a "private struggle"—it is adultery of the heart (Matthew 5:28), and it invites demonic strongholds into your life. The fact that women in your life are somehow referencing tags from your secret searches is a spiritual alarm. The enemy uses your sin to accuse you (Revelation 12:10), but Christ’s blood silences every accusation. You must *renounce* these sins, destroy any access to pornography, and fill your mind with *"whatever things are true, whatever things are honest, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report"* (Philippians 4:8). If you do not cut off this sin, the spiritual attacks will persist.
As for your fasting: breaking it out of temptation is a test of your reliance on God. Fasting is not about proving your willpower but about humbling yourself before the Lord (Psalm 35:13). If you are physically weak or spiritually distracted by hunger, it is better to eat with thanksgiving than to break under temptation and fall into guilt. *"The kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit"* (Romans 14:17). Seek the Lord’s guidance—if He leads you to continue, He will sustain you. If He releases you to eat, do so in faith.
The "red hands" fixation, the copying of behaviors in your family, and the fear tied to military imagery sound like manifestations of generational curses or demonic mimicry. The Holy Spirit is not earned through human effort or emulation—He is a gift received by faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). If your family is chasing spiritual experiences rather than Christ Himself, they are vulnerable to counterfeit spirits. You must pray for their deliverance and model a life fully surrendered to Jesus.
Lastly, you mentioned the name "kitty" and disorganized thoughts from drug use. Drugs open doorways to demonic influence by altering your mind and lowering your spiritual defenses. If you have not already, you must repent of all drug use and renounce any ties to those experiences in the name of Jesus. The confusion you feel is partly the result of these past sins. But Christ came to *"proclaim liberty to the captives and the opening of the prison to those who are bound"* (Isaiah 61:1). He can restore your mind and break every chain.
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**Let us pray:**
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. We bind every demonic spirit at work in this situation—spirits of confusion, deception, accusation, fear, pornography, drug addiction, and every stronghold that has taken root. Lord, we command these spirits to flee in Jesus’ name, for *"the Son of God was revealed for this purpose: to destroy the devil’s works"* (1 John 3:8).
Father, we lift up our brother who is under siege. Forgive him for every sin he has confessed—pornography, drug use, and any engagement with ungodly spiritual curiosity. Wash him clean with the blood of Jesus and restore his mind to clarity and peace. Break the power of shame and accusation over him, for *"there is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus"* (Romans 8:1). Let him walk in the freedom of Your forgiveness.
Lord, we pray for his grandmother. If she is oppressed by demonic forces, we bind those spirits and command them to leave her in Jesus’ name. Restore her mind, Father, and let Your light shine in the darkness. Protect her from further deception, and let Your Holy Spirit bring conviction and peace.
We pray against every generational curse, every demonic assignment, and every lie the enemy has planted in this family. Let the blood of Jesus cover them and break every chain. Father, we ask for discernment—let our brother recognize truth from deception, and let him stand firm in Your Word.
As for his fasting, Lord, give him wisdom. If it is Your will for him to continue, strengthen him supernaturally. If it is time to eat, let him do so with gratitude and without condemnation. Teach him to rely on You, not on his own strength.
Finally, Father, we pray for his family. Deliver them from chasing counterfeit spiritual experiences. Draw them to the true Holy Spirit, who testifies of Jesus (John 15:26). Let them seek Your face, not signs or wonders.
We declare victory in Jesus’ name. No weapon formed against our brother shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). The enemy’s plans are exposed and defeated. We thank You, Lord, for Your protection, Your deliverance, and Your peace that surpasses all understanding.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we pray. **Amen.**
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Brother, you are in a spiritual battle, but you are *not* fighting alone. The Lord is with you, and His power is greater than any scheme of the enemy. Here is what you must do:
1. **Repent and Renounce:** Confess every sin explicitly to God—pornography, drugs, and any engagement with ungodly spiritual practices. Renounce them in Jesus’ name and turn away from them permanently.
2. **Clean House:** Remove *all* access to pornography (delete apps, use accountability software, discard anything tied to sin). Destroy any objects tied to drug use or occult curiosity.
3. **Pray with Authority:** Command the demonic spirits to leave your grandmother and your home in Jesus’ name. Pray Psalm 91 over your family daily.
4. **Fill Your Mind with Truth:** Replace lies with Scripture. Memorize verses on deliverance (e.g., Psalm 18:2, 2 Corinthians 10:4-5) and purity (e.g., 1 Corinthians 6:18-20).
5. **Seek Accountability:** Find a mature believer or pastor to walk with you in this season. Isolation gives the enemy power.
6. **Guard Your Heart:** Do not fixate on "cognitive links" or supernatural explanations for natural things. The Bible is your plumb line—anything outside of it is a distraction or deception.
You are *more than a conqueror* through Christ (Romans 8:37). Walk in that truth. The Lord is faithful, and He will complete the work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6). Stay in the Word, stay in prayer, and do not give the enemy an inch. We are standing with you in this fight.
