helpme12
Humble Prayer Partner
Dear god, first I want to say thank you for all you have done for me and all that you are yet going to do. I come to you today to pray for myself and family. please help my family in Jesus name and continue to bless us and keep us covered under your blood and divine favor. Lord I am leaving for bct soon and I have to admit I am scared. while it is something I really want to do and have prayed about before joining I have never been away from the people I love this long. also I am praying I make it through. I feel like I have never finished anything in my life and I am trying to achieve that as well as my nursing degree soon. so far I love serving and helping others and I am praying I will continue to love it and get everything I need out of the experience without getting washed back and graduating. I pray the ten weeks fly by and it wont be as bad as I think. I am also praying I make friends and bonds as I am shy and being shy has stopped me from doing a lot. I want to actually do the best at something. I also have been struggling with running. something I use to be good at is giving me much trouble now. I am praying for myself also internally. I have been waking up angry lately because I allow others to push me around. trying not to be looked at as a bad person and trying not to stray from your will. I need you to help me. I have low confidence, low self esteem and It is not to the point where I want to die, kill myself or accept less than I deserve but it is low and it would really help me in a lot of situations if you would take my fears away. Family wise I am in love with my husband and do not regret marrying him. he is a wonderful man. however, being a stepmom is not easy. I am so tired of his sons mom. she is constantly causing trouble and coming between the relationship of him and his son/my stepson. somewhere someone is not over something. she does and says things to get to him and she does not properly respect our marriage. she has no boundaries and does not always use the most adult approach. while I have never said or done anything out of the way to her. the more she does to my husband and the sneaky things she does to get to me is beginning to anger me. If I don't come to you and you don't help I am literally going to blow up. I am trying my hardest. if I possess jealous or envy please take that away on my end. I would like for each of us to have a good relationship with the kids and no drama with the parent. help me lord to stop letting things get to me so easy. to not be jealous or mean. even though I have no acted on any of these emotions I still do not feel good for even having them towards ANYONE. I`m usually not this way but lately it has began to be a problem and all of these things are just something I cant do without you. you are what I need. please help me to get closer and spend more time with you. and thank you so much for all you have done and are going to do in advance. in Jesus name AMEN!
