russellcues
Prayer Warrior
I have posted a couple of times asking for prayer, I have prayed for a job, applied to sooo many but nothing yet. I have asked for strength but found little. I ask for forgiveness all throughout the day and read His word for guidance and strength. I have tried to be as joyous as I can be despite the heavy heavy yoke I carry. My ex-wife took the house, she wanted to leave the marriage and refused to work at staying together, I know for certain as God did speak to me that I did not sin in that respect, I asked Him for healing of my marriage but He chose not to. For that I am thankful. Now it seems that I am just chaff in the wind? I feel nothing but hurt and despair, loneliness and grief. I don't feel wanted where I am staying right now and there have been many many interviews for a job but not even a phone call afterwards.
I pray God will please end this feeling of hopelessness and the yoke I carry. My car will be gone soon, I can't find the money to make the next payment and I'm behind one month already. I long to be taken home, but God has not yet so I guess my suffering is for something? There is nothing more to ask for I just pray I'm not homeless soon and that God will hear my plea or please show me if I have sinned so awfully that He cannot? I don't have friends, never mind Christian friends, I have always been alone, it is my fate in life... I pray, alone, in the dark, in the cold, I yearn for every word from His mouth but in silence I wait.
I pray God will please end this feeling of hopelessness and the yoke I carry. My car will be gone soon, I can't find the money to make the next payment and I'm behind one month already. I long to be taken home, but God has not yet so I guess my suffering is for something? There is nothing more to ask for I just pray I'm not homeless soon and that God will hear my plea or please show me if I have sinned so awfully that He cannot? I don't have friends, never mind Christian friends, I have always been alone, it is my fate in life... I pray, alone, in the dark, in the cold, I yearn for every word from His mouth but in silence I wait.
