We hear the deep longing in your heart for purpose, understanding, and a path that honors both your unique gifts and your faith in Christ. Your struggles with autism, bullying, and the weight of others’ expectations are real, and we grieve with you over the humiliation and discrimination you’ve endured. Yet we also see the passion God has placed in you—a desire to create, to serve, and to use media and puppetry to glorify Him and help others. This is not a small thing! The Lord does not make mistakes in how He designs His children, and your love for puppets, storytelling, and media is not an accident. In fact, Scripture reminds us that God equips each believer with gifts for the building up of His body:
*"For as we have many members in one body, and all the members don’t have the same function, so we, who are many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. Having gifts differing according to the grace that was given to us, if prophecy, let’s prophesy according to the proportion of our faith; or service, let’s give ourselves to service; or he who teaches, to his teaching; or he who exhorts, to his exhortation: he who gives, let him do it with generosity; he who rules, with diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness."* (Romans 12:4-8, WEB)
Your desire to use your talents for Christian media is noble, but we must also address a few things with love and truth. First, we notice you mentioned your long hair in the context of glorifying God. While the Bible does not explicitly forbid long hair for men, it does teach that our appearance should not draw undue attention to ourselves or become a stumbling block to others. The apostle Paul writes:
*"Doesn’t even nature itself teach you that if a man has long hair, it is a dishonor to him?"* (1 Corinthians 11:14, WEB)
This isn’t about legalism, but about wisdom. If your hair is causing distraction or becoming a point of contention with your parents or others, prayerfully consider whether this is a hill worth standing on—or if yielding in this area could open doors for greater unity and focus on your calling. Remember, our goal is to point others to Christ, not to ourselves.
Second, your mention of working "two jobs" reveals a practical mindset, but we urge you to seek God’s will above all else—not just what seems feasible in the eyes of the world. If the Lord is truly calling you to Christian media, He will provide the way, even if it looks different from what your parents envision. However, this does not mean you should dismiss their wisdom entirely. Honoring your father and mother is a commandment with a promise:
*"Honor your father and mother, which is the first commandment with a promise: ‘that it may be well with you, and you may live long on the earth.’"* (Ephesians 6:2-3, WEB)
Your parents love you, even if they don’t fully understand your vision. Have you sat down with them to humbly share your heart—not just your frustrations, but your *godly* desires to serve others through media? Ask the Lord to soften their hearts and give them eyes to see the potential He has placed in you. At the same time, be open to their guidance. Perhaps there is a middle ground—a way to pursue your passion while also gaining practical experience in a job that builds discipline and financial stability.
As for the embarrassment you feel, remember that the things of God often look foolish to the world. Puppetry, when used for His glory, is no less valid than preaching, teaching, or singing. The key is surrendering your motives to Him. You said, *"Not to be the center of the star of attention, but to come up with ideas to help people and Christian media."* This is a beautiful heart posture! But we must ask: Are you *truly* seeking God’s glory, or are you also seeking validation for your struggles? It’s okay to want to be seen and understood, but let that desire drive you to Christ, not to the approval of man.
Finally, we must address the tone of frustration in your prayer. It’s clear you’ve faced deep pain, but bitterness and resentment can take root if we’re not careful. The Bible warns:
*"See to it that no one comes short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness, springing up, troubles you, and many be defiled by it."* (Hebrews 12:15, WEB)
Forgive those who have bullied or discriminated against you. Forgive your parents for not fully understanding you. Release these hurts to Jesus, who was despised and rejected (Isaiah 53:3) and yet entrusted Himself to the Father. He understands your pain more deeply than you know.
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**Let us pray together:**
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You see his heart, his struggles, and his dreams. Lord, You created him fearfully and wonderfully, autism and all, and You have a purpose for every part of his story. We ask that You heal the wounds of bullying, discrimination, and humiliation. Replace his shame with the confidence that comes from being Your beloved child.
Father, we pray for unity in his family. Softens his parents’ hearts to see the potential You’ve placed in him. Give them wisdom to guide him without stifling the gifts You’ve given. Help him to honor them even when he disagrees, trusting that You work through authority for our good. If his love for puppets and media is from You, Lord, open doors that no man can shut. Provide connections, opportunities, and favor in Christian circles where his talents can be used for Your kingdom. But if there are areas where he is holding too tightly to his own plans, convict him and redirect his steps.
Lord, guard his heart from bitterness. Help him to forgive those who have hurt him, just as You have forgiven us. Remind him that his worth is not in the approval of man, but in the blood of Jesus. If his long hair has become a distraction or a point of pride, reveal that to him and give him the humility to lay it down if needed.
Father, we ask for clarity in his career path. If You are calling him to Christian media, make the way clear. Provide mentors, resources, and divine appointments. But if You are asking him to wait or to pursue another path for a season, give him patience and trust in Your timing. Help him to see that even "small" jobs can be opportunities to serve You faithfully and to grow in character.
Most of all, Lord, draw him deeper into relationship with You. Let his identity be rooted in Christ alone, not in his talents, his struggles, or his parents’ expectations. Fill him with Your peace, Your joy, and Your unshakable purpose.
We rebuke the spirit of rejection, shame, and confusion that has tried to take hold of his life. In the name of Jesus, we declare that he is *more than a conqueror* through Christ who loves him (Romans 8:37). We speak life, hope, and divine direction over his future.
May Your will be done in his life, Lord—not his will, not his parents’ will, but *Yours*. We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer. Amen.
