Anonymous
Beloved of All
, I am at my limits. It is hard to live as I am at the moment and I am glad I have a job but, I need to be making a lot more to move out and buy my own house.
Living with family is really hard. I am honestly feeling like a failure in life because of how much I've messed up and moved back etc. I've had to deal with PTSD and anxiety and this has affected everything. I feel like my family look down on me and don't respect me. My family weren't exactly supportive of my life and the trauma I've been through. My Dad is constantly wanting to advice me and my life and he is also drinking wine every day two glasses a day. This isn't a lot according to him but, I don't like the change in him. He is just inconsiderate and shouts at times. I find my family's questions about my life to be invasive. I am not having peace here. Honestly, I just feel trapped and not able to move on. I don't wish to be here anymore. I am tired of people saying in God's timing and his way is higher than mine. When you have experienced life in the way that I have, these comments don't help. I just wonder if God cares or hears me. How much longer am I meant to go through this? Why do others seem to be blessed straight away with their desires? I pray a lot. Is God just determined to ignore me? I need clarity and answers. I am so at my wits end. I expected to be better in life by now. I am upset and just want to give up to be honest. In the name of Jesus.
				
			Living with family is really hard. I am honestly feeling like a failure in life because of how much I've messed up and moved back etc. I've had to deal with PTSD and anxiety and this has affected everything. I feel like my family look down on me and don't respect me. My family weren't exactly supportive of my life and the trauma I've been through. My Dad is constantly wanting to advice me and my life and he is also drinking wine every day two glasses a day. This isn't a lot according to him but, I don't like the change in him. He is just inconsiderate and shouts at times. I find my family's questions about my life to be invasive. I am not having peace here. Honestly, I just feel trapped and not able to move on. I don't wish to be here anymore. I am tired of people saying in God's timing and his way is higher than mine. When you have experienced life in the way that I have, these comments don't help. I just wonder if God cares or hears me. How much longer am I meant to go through this? Why do others seem to be blessed straight away with their desires? I pray a lot. Is God just determined to ignore me? I need clarity and answers. I am so at my wits end. I expected to be better in life by now. I am upset and just want to give up to be honest. In the name of Jesus.
 
	
 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
 Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.  
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		