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Niccio
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I am so depressed and just wish I had enough guts to make an end to my stupid miserable life.
Our pastor said I have God’s favour in my life. Wow what a way to show it.
My employers is people with 8 cars, 11 houses etc. They are really rich. I have being working for them for 6 years and did not even get an increase on my salary this year. About a week ago I prayed at the prayer meeting that God must please help me out of my financial difficulty. Guest what? The next day my employers told me that they will be closing the doors of the office at the end of November. I pray for God for a financial breakthrough and what happen, I lost my jobs. Wow that’s just great. I had to go for an interview, for another job. How lucky for me. It is too far from where I am staying, because like a parasite I have to borrow my mother’s car to travel to work. Also I am staying with her, because I cannot afford a place of my own. I hate every moment to stay with her. She is smoking (all the doors and windows closed). She will stand in the lounge and urinate on the carpet. I won’t even tell how the toilet looks like. I don’t have any friends, because I don’t want anybody to come to that stinking filthy house. I am trying to keep it clean. I am also the one who has to mow the lawn, gardening etc. I don’t even have love in my life. Being divorce since 1999. I just don’t know why men are rejecting me.
I thought I was a child of God, but obviously not. I did give my heart to Jesus etc. I tried to be a good person and show others the love of Christ, like street evangelism; buying kids I don’t even know school stuff, (with the little money I had) Earlier this year somebody in our church said that the Lord put it in his heart that he must give me a car. The day before he would gave me the car he said to me he can’t do it anymore. Another lady from our church phone me this morning, very excited, somebody gave her a car. Why, why ? I am just about to give up everything. I am definitely God’s step child. I can’t take it anymore,
Our pastor said I have God’s favour in my life. Wow what a way to show it.
My employers is people with 8 cars, 11 houses etc. They are really rich. I have being working for them for 6 years and did not even get an increase on my salary this year. About a week ago I prayed at the prayer meeting that God must please help me out of my financial difficulty. Guest what? The next day my employers told me that they will be closing the doors of the office at the end of November. I pray for God for a financial breakthrough and what happen, I lost my jobs. Wow that’s just great. I had to go for an interview, for another job. How lucky for me. It is too far from where I am staying, because like a parasite I have to borrow my mother’s car to travel to work. Also I am staying with her, because I cannot afford a place of my own. I hate every moment to stay with her. She is smoking (all the doors and windows closed). She will stand in the lounge and urinate on the carpet. I won’t even tell how the toilet looks like. I don’t have any friends, because I don’t want anybody to come to that stinking filthy house. I am trying to keep it clean. I am also the one who has to mow the lawn, gardening etc. I don’t even have love in my life. Being divorce since 1999. I just don’t know why men are rejecting me.
I thought I was a child of God, but obviously not. I did give my heart to Jesus etc. I tried to be a good person and show others the love of Christ, like street evangelism; buying kids I don’t even know school stuff, (with the little money I had) Earlier this year somebody in our church said that the Lord put it in his heart that he must give me a car. The day before he would gave me the car he said to me he can’t do it anymore. Another lady from our church phone me this morning, very excited, somebody gave her a car. Why, why ? I am just about to give up everything. I am definitely God’s step child. I can’t take it anymore,
