I don't know what you are going through, but I want you to know that you are not alone, I have been through things so bad that I could not even share them with you, but I can say that there is nothing worth suicide , and its the most selfish thing a person can do. people can be so cruel, and life itself is . very hard, please just start by confessing positive things like I love life , GOD IS GOOD, I am happy , etc... our words play a big part in our lives , I WILL PRAY FOR YOU FRIEND, AND YOU WILL FEEL IT, DONT GIVE UP things will change if I were there I would hug you and say, trust JESUS.