But I have been totally challenged to a point of losing all my faith. I now think maybe I have bipolar disorder because the more I have tried to walk upright with God, the farther I am lapsing back to desperation, fear, sexual immorality, and total despair. Life doesn't make sense right now, I am crying to God all the time to take my life, I stay at home jobless, I even most of the time fail to handle jobs, I feel maintaining a relationship is nearly impossible. I actually need help. I love God and want to be a minister but I am currently down in all ways. My faith doesn't glorify God.
