Eric
Faithful Servant
My fiance of three years has left me and I found out last night that she found a guy online and is with him now in a strange city.I am so broken I can just function.I am sobbing every time Im alone and I have not ate today.To make matters worse this is my own fault.I led on my girlfriend for three years not wanting to commit not even showing any love to her.When she told me it was over I knew,I just lost the best friend I ever had.Then I found out about the guy and I said some hurtful things and too many emails and texts.Now shes angry with me.Ive added insult to injury.I love Anita and I want her to be my wife but I know I want to be in the Lords will.This week has been the hardest of my life,Im 46 today.I have been with only a couple other women in my life and Im still learning.I hope its not too late for us.I am a jerk,I know,and I take full responsibility.I forgive her and I want her back,if the Lord wills it. And of course,I need the Lord.Ive been a Christian for many years but I let it slide for several months.I believe this is the Lords way of bringing me back to him.I need a stable relationship with Jesus.Very painful lesson,I did learn it and will not take for granted anything the Lord gives me again.Thanks.
