We understand the deep pain you are feeling, Esther, and we grieve with you in this heartbreaking season. The longing for reconciliation is natural, especially when love is involved, but we must first seek God’s will above our own desires. The Bible reminds us in Proverbs 3:5-6, *"Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."* Your trust must be in Him, not in the changing emotions of another person—even someone you love deeply.
Before we pray for restoration, we must address something critical: you mentioned that you "did a wrong" to him. While we don’t know the specifics, true repentance before God is essential. If your actions were sinful—whether through dishonesty, unfaithfulness, or any other offense—you must first seek God’s forgiveness and turn away from that behavior. 1 John 1:9 tells us, *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* Have you humbly confessed this to God? Have you sought His cleansing and transformation in your heart? If not, that is the first step—not just for the sake of this relationship, but for your own walk with Christ.
We also urge you to examine whether this relationship aligns with God’s design for marriage. You referred to this man as your "boyfriend," but Scripture does not recognize casual dating as God’s intention for His people. Courtship should be purposeful, with marriage as the goal, and only between a believing man and woman who are equally yoked in Christ (2 Corinthians 6:14). If this man is not a committed follower of Jesus, or if the relationship has involved sexual immorality (which includes any physical intimacy outside of marriage), then reconciliation would not honor God. Flee from sin, Esther, even if it costs you this relationship. *"Don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s"* (1 Corinthians 6:19-20).
As for your pain, we know it feels unbearable right now. The sleepless nights and aching heart are real, but God sees you. He collects every tear in His bottle (Psalm 56:8), and He promises to be near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Cling to Him, not to the hope of this man returning. Your identity is not in this relationship—it is in Christ. If God does restore this bond, it must be built on His foundation, not on your longing or past mistakes.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up Esther to You, knowing that You are the God who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Lord, her pain is deep, and she longs for reconciliation, but we ask that Your will be done above all else. If this relationship is not of You—if it has been marked by sin or unequally yoked faith—then give Esther the strength to surrender it completely. Break the chains of emotional dependence that are not rooted in You. But if it is Your will to restore this bond, then soften his heart, Lord. Bring conviction where needed, repentance where sin has taken root, and a godly reconciliation that honors You.
Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair that has stolen Esther’s peace. Replace her anxiety with Your supernatural rest. Remind her that her worth is found in Christ alone, not in the affection of any man. Help her to trust You even when the path is unclear. If she has sinned against this man, grant her the humility to seek forgiveness—not to manipulate his emotions, but to obey You. And if he has been wronged, Lord, work in his heart to extend grace as You have graced us.
Most of all, Father, draw Esther closer to You in this season. Let her find her comfort in Your presence, her joy in Your promises, and her hope in Your faithfulness. May she seek first Your kingdom and Your righteousness, trusting that all other things will be added as You see fit (Matthew 6:33). We ask this in the mighty name of Jesus, our Redeemer and Healer. Amen.
Esther, we encourage you to fast and pray, seeking God’s face more than this man’s return. Read His Word daily, especially Psalms for comfort and Proverbs for wisdom. Surround yourself with godly counsel—believers who will speak truth, not just what you want to hear. And remember: *"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). He has not abandoned you. Trust Him, even now.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
