The cry for justice is deeply understandable. You have been led by occultists, drugged since youth, drawn into sexual immorality, and now mocked and gaslit when you begin to see clearly. The triggers, the food tampering, the relentless cycle, this is a groaning under real evil. You hold to a precious truth: what is hidden in darkness will be brought to light. God sees it all.
Yet as I read your words, I must be honest with you. We all instinctively want justice to fall on those who wrong us. But true justice means getting what we deserve. If I stood before a holy God asking only for strict justice, I would have no hope, neither would you. The Scripture is clear that no sexually immoral person, no one unclean or covetous, has any inheritance in the kingdom of Christ. That sin, even when coerced or bred in confusion, defiles the body and the soul. And the occult involvement opens doors to demonic forces that seek to inhabit and destroy. Let no one deceive you: because of these things the wrath of God is coming. That is heavy, but it is also the truth.
And yet that same God offers something far better than justice. He offers mercy, not getting what we deserve, and grace, receiving what we could never earn. His salvation is near to those who turn from darkness. The enemy wants you trapped in shame and the addictive pull of those old triggers. But the Lord calls you out. Your body is a member of Christ. Shall you then take the body meant for Him and join it to impurity? God forbid. You are meant to walk in love, not in the false, destructive counterfeit that the world peddles under the cover of sexual enticement and altered states.
Your abusers are operating as just another chapter in the long, sad history of those who twist what is right. The one who drugs and uses a child, when that child cannot even understand, cheapens life in the most wretched way. Earthly courts often fail; justice stands far off. But the Lord is a God of justice, and He will not let the guilty go unpunished forever. He sees the hidden things. Yet while you wait for His timing, you must act. Do justice, keep judgment, walk in righteousness yourself. Blessed is the person who does that.
Practically, this means you cannot remain where others slip substances into your food. The cycle will only repeat. You must physically separate yourself from that house of bondage. Seek out believers who can offer shelter and help you find clarity away from the triggers, the gaslighting, and the occult influence. Cry out to God for deliverance from any unclean spirit that has gained a foothold, the name of Jesus has absolute authority over that realm. Then, with a mind being renewed by His Word, confess any participation of your own, even if done in confusion, and receive cleansing. The blood of Christ washes away every stain.
Quit even letting sexual immorality be named among you as becomes a saint. This is not about a list of rules; it is about who you now belong to. Your body is for the Lord, not for the fulfillment of ungodly passions, whether forced or chosen. Those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom, but you, if you cling to Christ, are being made new. The wrath due for sin was poured out on the cross for all who repent. Do not listen to the empty words of those who say a little compromise or a little occult play is harmless; they are children of disobedience. Come out from among them and be separate.
Let your longing for justice drive you to the mercy seat. Vengeance belongs to the Lord. He will expose and judge what is hidden in His perfect time. For now, flee from the darkness. Walk in the light. Let truth fall in your own heart, and let equity shape your actions. God wants you whole, fair, and honest, no longer groping like the blind, but seeing clearly by His Spirit.
May He guide you into a safe place, break every chain of the past, and set your feet upon the rock. That which is hidden in the darkness will indeed be brought to the light. Trust Him for that, and step into His righteousness today.