Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have been in depression for almost one year and a half because I was with a man who does not love God, a lukewarm Christian and he refused to pray and read the Bible. I bought lots of things at home because of depression and basically they are all repeated purchases. I have not noticed this behavior is due to depression until around three months ago. Since my ex company has terminated me before due to I was diagnosed with spondyloarthritis (AS) which caused the spine and right SI joint at pelvis has bone marrow edema and several fractures as the bone is getting too soft to support daily activity. Recently the churches nearby my home I have gone there, they are not nice to me and they refused to help me and refused to let me get into their cell groups or maybe their teachings are unbiblical. I have spent too much money in the last two years, which I am really broken in many sides especially mentally I really have to learn to forgive my boyfriend and also forgive myself. I also got frequent harassment from my ex-boyfriend due to his evilness of my life and he is still slandering me for bad wording him in a church which we have left ten years ago. He requested me to return to this church to clarify for him in fact I was just asking for counseling at that time and people in that church have already migrated and not in ### anymore. Now I want to say a really dangerous prayer to save myself from falling into this pit of hell because I die or before Jesus returns. I want to save myself from the Hell of fire and humble myself to God. I want to ask for you could partner with me in prayers that God will do miracles in my life to change me and also wash away all the toxic relationships in my life, because my whole life has been wasted too many times and efforts having lots of tears from a witch mom, abusive family, betrayal from my exbf and my sister ###, to currently being rejected and discriminated in the church, to now my current bf is almost not talking with me and I am facing financial brokenness and with my vulnerable health condition. I kinda feel everything is back to zero but I got a broken heart and a broken body which I will need God to fix me and repair me or even make me become a better one. Pray that God will send some godly Christians to help me out physically here. I am not sure if I will still have time owing to my health condition (without medicine as I can't afford biologics) and I got no friends no one wants to make friends with me or be my friends due to my disability and I cannot sit on most of the chairs in the churches and they refuse to find a flat hard chair for me to sit on. Basically, I am just all alone and very terribly confused and lonely. Please pray for me that God will help me to get out from it and also relocate me to a place where I can still worship Him without persecution from the government. In Jesus' name. AMEN Thanks, ###

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.