Oh, precious child of God, we hear the raw anguish in your cry, and our hearts break with you as we lift you before the throne of grace. You are not unseen, and your pain is not unheard—our Heavenly Father collects every tear in His bottle (Psalm 56:8) and is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Yet we must speak truth in love: the despair you express reveals a soul under fierce attack, and we must stand firmly on the Word of God to combat the lies of the enemy.
First, we rejoice that you have called upon the name of Jesus, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). It is only through Christ that we have access to the Father (John 14:6), and your repeated invocation of His name is evidence that the Holy Spirit is still at work in you, even in this darkness. But we must address the dangerous whispers of hopelessness that have taken root. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and he is exploiting your exhaustion to suggest that God does not love you—that He is a tyrant, that your suffering means abandonment. *These are lies from the pit of hell.* Scripture declares that nothing can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:38-39), not even the suffering you endure. Jesus Himself was despised, rejected, and acquainted with grief (Isaiah 53:3), yet He trusted the Father perfectly. Your pain is not proof of God’s absence; it is an invitation to cling to Him more desperately than ever before.
You speak of feeling like a "doll for abuse," trapped with narcissistic abusers and lifesucking sickness. We acknowledge that your suffering is real, and we weep with you over the injustice of it. But listen closely: God does not delight in your affliction. He is not the author of your abuse, nor does He "imprison" you in it. The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed (Psalm 9:9), and He commands us to resist the devil, knowing that he will flee (James 4:7). Your cry for rescue is heard, but we must also ask: Have you sought earthly help where possible? Have you reached out to trusted believers, pastors, or authorities who can intervene in your physical circumstances? Faith is not passivity—it is active trust in God’s provision, which often comes through His people. If you are in danger, we urge you to take practical steps to safety while crying out to God for divine intervention.
Your mention of waiting for a text from someone—longing for a word of rescue or love—reveals a deep human need for connection. But no earthly relationship can bear the weight of your hope. Only Christ can satisfy the deepest longings of your soul. If this person is someone you are looking to for romantic love, we must remind you that no spouse, boyfriend, or girlfriend can save you; only Jesus can. If this is a courtship, is it centered on Christ? Are you both pursuing holiness and marriage as God designed it? Or is this longing rooted in a desire for escape rather than godly commitment? We pray that if this relationship is not honoring to God, He would close the door decisively, for your protection and His glory.
Most urgently, we must address the words of death you have spoken: *"I honestly want you guys to pray for me so that I can leave this world asap."* Beloved, these words grieve the heart of God. Suicide is not the answer—it is the enemy’s final lie, a permanent "solution" to temporary pain that would rob you of the victory Christ has already won for you. Your life is not your own; you were bought with a price (1 Corinthians 6:20). The Lord has plans for you, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in the valley of the shadow of death, He is with you (Psalm 23:4). To choose death is to reject His promise of deliverance, and we *rebuked* that spirit of despair in the name of Jesus. You are *not* to give up. You are to fight, to endure, to let the Lord fight for you (Exodus 14:14). He is your warrior (Exodus 15:3), and He will not let your foot be moved (Psalm 121:3).
As for your fading faith, we understand the honesty of your struggle. Even the disciples cried, *"Lord, increase our faith!"* (Luke 17:5). Faith is not a feeling; it is a choice to trust God’s character even when circumstances scream otherwise. You have asked for the faith of Jesus Himself—and this is a godly request! But know this: faith grows not in the absence of trials, but in the furnace of them. The testing of your faith produces endurance, and endurance must have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing (James 1:2-4). You are not failing because you feel weak; you are being refined. Cling to Him, even if it feels like you’re hanging by a thread. That thread is stronger than you know—it is the very righteousness of Christ (Isaiah 41:10).
Now, let us pray over you with the authority of Christ and the compassion of His Spirit:
*"Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of Your beloved child, who is crushed in spirit and weary in soul. Lord, You see the stalkers, the harassers, the monitoring spirits, and the narcissistic abusers who have tormented them. You are not blind to their suffering, nor deaf to their cries. We plead the blood of Jesus over them and command every demonic assignment against their mind, body, and spirit to be bound and cast into the abyss in Jesus’ name. No weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and every tongue that rises against them in judgment, You shall condemn.
Father, we ask for Your supernatural intervention. If there are people involved in this harassment, expose them, convict them, and bring them to repentance or remove their influence entirely. Surround Your child with Your angels (Psalm 91:11) and let no evil befall them. Heal their body from sickness and injury—restore their breath, their strength, their hope. You are Jehovah-Rapha, the Lord who heals (Exodus 15:26). Touch them as You touched the woman with the issue of blood (Mark 5:34) and raise them up in wholeness.
Lord, they have begged for Your love, for proof of Your care. We declare over them that You *do* love them with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). You have engraved them on the palms of Your hands (Isaiah 49:16). The cross is Your ultimate proof—Jesus endured the ultimate isolation and abuse so that they would never be alone. Forgive them for the moments they have doubted Your heart. Renew their mind (Romans 12:2) to see their suffering through Your eyes: as a temporary affliction producing an eternal weight of glory (2 Corinthians 4:17).
We rebuke the spirit of suicide and death that has whispered lies to them. Satan, we bind you in the name of Jesus and command you to release this child of God from your grip. Holy Spirit, fill them afresh with Your presence. Let them feel the warmth of Your love, the peace that surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7). Remind them that their life has purpose—that You are not done writing their story. Give them divine encounters, divine appointments, and divine comfort that can only come from You.
Father, they have asked for faith. We pray that You would grant it abundantly, that they may know without a shadow of doubt that You are good, that You are for them, and that You will never leave them nor forsake them (Hebrews 13:5). Let them recall the works You have done in the past and trust You for the future. When they cannot pray, let the Spirit intercede for them with groanings too deep for words (Romans 8:26).
As for the person they are waiting to hear from, Lord, if this relationship is of You, let it be made clear and let it bring glory to Your name. If it is not, close the door gently but firmly, and redirect their heart fully to You. Teach them to find their completion in Christ alone, not in human love.
Finally, Father, we ask for a supernatural breakthrough. End this "job season" of suffering and usher them into a season of restoration, joy, and fruitfulness. Let them testify of Your goodness, that others may see and fear and put their trust in You (Psalm 40:3).
In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray, Amen and Amen."*
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Beloved, we implore you: *Do not give up.* The fact that you are still crying out to God is evidence that He is sustaining you, even when you cannot feel it. The psalmists often poured out their raw emotions to God—read Psalm 13, Psalm 22, or Psalm 88 and see how they wrestled with Him in honesty. But notice that even in their despair, they *kept* wrestling. They did not let go. Neither must you.
We also encourage you to immerse yourself in Scripture. Let the Word of God be a lamp to your feet (Psalm 119:105). Start with the Psalms for comfort, then move to the Gospels to see Jesus’ compassion for the broken. Memorize promises like Isaiah 43:2: *"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned, and flame will not scorch you."*
Lastly, we urge you to seek godly community. Isolation is the enemy’s playground. If you do not have a local church, find one. If you cannot attend in person, seek out online fellowships or trusted believers who can pray with you and speak life over you. You are not meant to walk this path alone.
We are standing with you in this fight. Keep holding on—He is holding on to you even more tightly. The night may be dark, but joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5). Your Redeemer lives (Job 19:25), and He *will* stand upon the earth. Wait for Him. Trust Him. Let Him love you.