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nuptial -bound
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Thanks be to all who've prayed for me. I wonder why, if nothing's impossible with God, I haven't the one thing I've prayed fervently, ceaselessly for? True love + marriage? I am not young, care for my mom. I have been passed over so many times! All my friends are married, why not me? I got angry with God yesterday. Forgive please, Abba? I am weary from waiting, sighing, watching You bless others. Why do You withhold from me a good, godly thing, according to Psalms 84:11? Let me find a man like my dad, devoted to righteousness, his wife, family? I am withering, feeling forsaken by You? Please, answer prayer soon, make up for lost time. I am so, agonizingly lonely, forgotten. Bereft of great hope + faith as I once was. Make rivers of my desert. I fear I've become Naomi, bitter + despondent. Anything so heavenly can happen to me. I am truly beaten down. Reverse this for me? It's been 20 years. Make it rain in my dry, barrenness? Let me smell the coming of it, like before it rains? Thank you, Lord. I worship no other but You. Forgive me my sins + mistakes + grant me my dying wish? I feel dead of hope.
