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My Glorified "boyfriend and i have been together for a little over 2 years, we have a child together and i have children from a previous marriage which he wanted to help take on. We have been through everything from torrid relationships in our own pasts to homelessness together....When we finally get back on our feet, i think things are going great, things start to happen with in the relationship that target insecurities with us both, we start to withdraw from each other....He has always been a man of faith....he made a commitment to Jesus Christ in 2005, as did i in 2005....we did not know each other then but he made me well aware that he was a man that had Jesus in his life, and I made him aware of the same. for some odd reason when we met, i guess the physical took over the mindful and ways we were to court each other, and the relationship start out backwards....we ended up having a child and we were not married, we then co-habituated together with the hopes that we would get married someday, hence the reason i called us "glorified" boyfriend and girlfriend. just recently, about 2 months ago he packed his things, and left our home with no note or words, no communications what so ever....i knew we had issues within the relationship, but not to the point where the kids and i had to be left in the manner that he left us....i did struggle with need for a period of time, although he worked, he quit his job, and left the state i found out later on. a period of fa month went by...I stayed strong for my children, used my resources wisely and got us back to where i can take care of my family comfortably....about 2 Sundays ago, I attended his mentors church. his Mentor is now the Pastor of this church, and i have made the commitment to make this a ministry i want to become a part of. That Sunday at church the whole congregation was asked if there were any testimonies to be given so that we may pray for them....i was a little gun shy at first given i was made to be comfortable through everyone else giving testimony....instead, one of the members mentioned my situation, and asked that the church pray for me the kids and for his return, or bless him where he was so that he may eventually return to his family and make the commitment to his family again
After church was over, I was invited to the Pastors home for lunch and fellowship. we made a nice spread of blessed food, and while cooking with the pastors wife, my phone went off from a -banned site- message....It was HIM !!!....He said that he was safe and okay, and that he missed us as well, that he is in a Men’s recovery home that puts men in a transition to get closer to God. it is a good place for him, but he keeps telling me that in order for him to reconnect with me, I need to bear good fruit......i do know what that means...but a the same time I feel like i am being blamed for this happening. I love this man, and have lately let the Lord take over my home, and guide me, and revelation to me what the next move is for myself and for this relationship. I will sacrifice everything I have for him, no matter what he does not have....
My request today is that i would like the relationship to be put and kept in Prayer as we both grow in the Lord to know what it is to Bear Good Fruit. I want to be One Flesh with this man, raise our family like we are supposed to, under the eyes of God, in the bonds of Holy Matrimony....it will take time for both of us to heal, we have hurt each other a lot, not one more than the other....Please pray that joy, and love , and healing is put on his heart , and to let him know we are here whenever he needs us....put my hurt and pain for the way things went to rest and bring peace and joy, into my life and my children’s
After church was over, I was invited to the Pastors home for lunch and fellowship. we made a nice spread of blessed food, and while cooking with the pastors wife, my phone went off from a -banned site- message....It was HIM !!!....He said that he was safe and okay, and that he missed us as well, that he is in a Men’s recovery home that puts men in a transition to get closer to God. it is a good place for him, but he keeps telling me that in order for him to reconnect with me, I need to bear good fruit......i do know what that means...but a the same time I feel like i am being blamed for this happening. I love this man, and have lately let the Lord take over my home, and guide me, and revelation to me what the next move is for myself and for this relationship. I will sacrifice everything I have for him, no matter what he does not have....
My request today is that i would like the relationship to be put and kept in Prayer as we both grow in the Lord to know what it is to Bear Good Fruit. I want to be One Flesh with this man, raise our family like we are supposed to, under the eyes of God, in the bonds of Holy Matrimony....it will take time for both of us to heal, we have hurt each other a lot, not one more than the other....Please pray that joy, and love , and healing is put on his heart , and to let him know we are here whenever he needs us....put my hurt and pain for the way things went to rest and bring peace and joy, into my life and my children’s
