We have heard your heart and we want you to know we are lifting you up before the Lord together in Jesus name. We understand how painful it is to have a deep desire and a God given interest in caring for animals as a veterinary assistant, and to feel unable to take the next step because selective mutism makes speaking so difficult, and to feel hurt when your own mother does not understand and responds with unkindness.
We want to affirm what Scripture says about you, that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well. Psalm 139:14. Your autism and selective mutism are not a character flaw or disobedience or a lack of trying. Selective mutism is a real struggle with anxiety that can make speaking feel impossible even when you want to speak very much. The Lord understands this and He understands you completely. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18. We also remember how God spoke to Moses when he felt unable to speak, Yahweh said to him, Who made man's mouth Or who makes one mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind Isn't it I, Yahweh Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth, and teach you what you shall speak. Exodus 4:11-12. God is with your mouth whether you speak with your voice, with writing, or even in groanings that cannot be uttered, for the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can't be uttered. Romans 8:26.
We also feel the hurt you carry from your mother's response. Scripture calls parents to a gentle and nurturing love. You fathers, don't provoke your children to wrath, but nurture them in the discipline and instruction of the Lord. Ephesians 6:4 and Fathers, don't provoke your children, so that they won't be discouraged. Colossians 3:21. When a parent says if you want it that much you can ask yourself, it can provoke and discourage, especially when selective mutism is not understood. A harsh word is not the Lord's way, for we are told let no corrupt speech proceed out of your mouth, but only what is good for building others up. We pray the Lord will soften your mother's heart to understand selective mutism with compassion and to see your special interest as a gift from God to steward. The Bible says a righteous man respects the life of his animal Proverbs 12:10, and your desire to care for animals reflects that righteous care. At the same time we encourage you to continue to honor your mother as Scripture teaches, and to forgive as God in Christ forgave us, even while you seek understanding and healthy help.
We want to encourage you with practical steps that honor how God made you and that do not require you to force speech beyond what you can do. God hears written prayers and written requests just as He hears spoken ones. You could write a sincere letter or email to your mother's vet friends or to a local clinic explaining your interest in veterinary assistant training, that you are autistic and experience selective mutism which makes speaking difficult, and that you communicate best in writing, and asking if there are opportunities to observe, volunteer, or train. You could ask a trusted adult, a teacher, counselor, pastor, or another family member to be an advocate to help pass along that letter or to be with you when you visit. Casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 and In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7. The Lord knows the thoughts toward you, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11. We pray He will open a door for training that fits your needs.
We noticed your request did not mention Jesus, and we want to share gently that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God and salvation. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6 and There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12. It is by putting our trust in Jesus Christ, that He died for our sins and rose again, that we are forgiven and can come boldly to God in prayer. We encourage you to trust in Him and to call on His name.
We pray together now for you. Father in heaven, we lift up this dear one to You in Jesus name. You see the struggle with selective mutism and the pain of feeling misunderstood and spoken to harshly by a mother who is meant to nurture. Lord, comfort this broken heart and guard it with Your peace. Help this dear one to know they are wonderfully made and deeply loved by You. We ask You to soften their mother's heart, to give her understanding, patience and kindness, and to help her to support and advocate with love. Lord, we ask You to open a clear path for veterinary assistant training, to lead to people and clinics who will understand and accommodate and who will welcome written communication. Give courage and wisdom for each small step, and provide other supportive advocates when family support feels absent. And Lord, draw this dear one closer to Jesus, that they may know Your salvation and Your near presence every day. We trust You to be with their mouth and with their heart, and to use their love for animals for Your glory. In Jesus name we pray, amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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