Annileve
Account Closed
Apparently the blessings I've been waiting for and praying for is going to take MUCH longer than I've expected. Basically, I feel crushed right now. I was longing for the holy spirit, the freedom, peace and joy it would bring me. I didn't think I could go on WITHOUT it for much longer. But it does look like I don't have a choice. I feel sick. What I thought was around the corner is more like a few blocks away. I am scared. I feel like my hope is just running through my fingers. I am scared that this means that my bad past will just continue. I feel like I'll be powerless, because I'll be without God so close to me. I feel like giving up more than ever. And that's all because I feel like I'll be on my own. That God will interfere at my worst moments, but that I'll have plenty of time to get miserable, like now. Please pray for me! In Jesus name, that it will not be the way I fear, amen.
