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sandramead
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I lost my mother on Feb. 04 this year. Then on May 1st my younger brother (44) was hit by a car walking across the street. He died on May 3rd. I am so lost. He had no wife or children and I, being the oldest sibling have had most of the legal and paperwork to do. Also being the oldest sister in a family with 8 kids, I was more his mother than his sister. My mother struggled with mental illness most of her life. There is 9 years between he and I. I can't function. I just ordered his head stone yesterday and seem to be paralized. I have a very large family and they are all praying for me. They know I just lost one of my babies. It was all so sudden. My father was killed in the same way with the same injuries in 1973 when I was 16. The horror of re-living it all is more than I can handle. I have my 2 grand kids to take care of. My Son and the kids have been great, but I can't stop crying. I feel so lost. Please lift me up. As hard as I try to reconcile this in prayer, I can't stay focused to pray it through. My broken heart is so overwhelming. I try to reason that the Lord called him for a reason, and it's not my place to question it. I've always believed that unless it was murder or suicide it was God's will, but I can't make this dog quit chasing it's tail. Please help pray me through this. Thank you Sandy Mead