The weight of what you have endured is not lost on me. To lose someone you loved so deeply, in such a sudden and intimate way, is a kind of suffering that words can barely reach. Grief like that can feel like a wound in the soul, and when troubles keep piling on top of it, it is easy to feel as though some dark shadow has moved in to finish the destruction. I do not doubt the anguish behind your prayer, and I want to speak honestly with you from the Scriptures about what you are facing.
Death is an enemy. It was never part of God’s original design. It slithered into the world through sin, and ever since, it has held humanity in a grip of fear and bondage. But what you must know, what your heart needs to cling to right now, is that Jesus Christ has already put death’s master out of business. When He went to the cross, He tasted death for every man. He took into Himself the full penalty of sin which is spiritual death, separation from God. And by dying in your place, He destroyed the one who had the power of death, that is, the devil. Satan’s claim over your life, if your trust is in Christ, has been cancelled. The resurrection proved it. Death could not hold Jesus, and it will not hold those who belong to Him. That does not mean you will not feel the sting of loss or the ache in your chest that makes you feel you cannot swallow. Jesus Himself was made perfect through suffering, and He is touched by the feeling of your infirmities. But it does mean that the ultimate weapon of evil has been shattered. You do not have to fear death, nor the one who wields it as a threat.
You sense that something evil is pressing in against you, and your instinct to cry out in the name of Jesus is right. The Bible tells us to resist the devil, and he will flee. But let me also gently remind you that while we rebuke the enemy, our safety is found not in formulas but in a living relationship with God. The fear of the Lord is to hate evil. This is where wisdom begins. You asked God to remove whatever evil spirit is trying to hurt you. That is a good prayer, but it must be joined with a heart that deliberately turns away from anything that gives darkness a foothold. I am not suggesting your grief is caused by some secret sin of yours. Look at Job. He lost everything, and God Himself said Job was a righteous man who hated evil. Yet Satan was permitted to bring calamity after calamity. Job’s friends were wrong to assume he was being punished. Sometimes we suffer because we live in a fallen world, and God’s purposes are deeper than we can see. He received evil from God’s hand as well as good, and still he did not charge God foolishly.
But here is what I must say, not to wound you further, but because I care about your whole soul. You spoke of your girlfriend as your wife because you were together for ten years. The depth of your bond I do not minimize, and losing her is a genuine and terrible sorrow. Yet the Scriptures teach that marriage is a covenant entered into before God, and living as if married outside of that covenant is something God warns against for our protection. I am not saying her death was a punishment for that. I am not saying God sent an evil spirit because of it. But I am saying that walking in God’s ways is where our surest defense lies. We keep ourselves in the love of God by obedience, not to earn His affection, but to rest under the covering of His authority. When we drift from His order, we can find ourselves more vulnerable to spiritual attack, not because God is fickle, but because we have stepped outside His appointed protection. Jehoshaphat had a strange fascination with observing evil and aligning himself with Ahab’s house, and it nearly cost him his life multiple times. We cannot walk in the counsel of the ungodly and expect to be shielded from the consequences of that path.
So my plea for you is this: run to Jesus as your refuge, not just for deliverance from harassing spirits, but for cleansing and for new life. God has set before you life and death. The mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace. You cannot bring her back, no. But you can know the One who conquered the grave. You can know that because Jesus tasted death for you, you will never taste spiritual death. The second death has no power over a child of God. Your grief is real, but do not let it drive you to speak as though death has the final word. It does not. Jesus has opened the gates of life. Cling to Him. Hate what is evil; hold fast to what is good. Do not misinterpret God’s patience as indifference. He sees every tear. He will execute justice in His time. And if you are His, nothing, no weapon formed against you, will ultimately prosper. Satan’s accusations are silenced by the blood of Christ. His claim is annulled.
Stand on that ground. Pray, yes, rebuke the darkness in Jesus’ name, but also fill your life with the light of His Word and the fellowship of believers who will help you walk in obedience and faith. God does not want you to live in bondage to fear. He wants you to know that to depart from evil is health to your body and refreshment to your bones. Honor Him with your life, and trust that He will be your shield. The storms may rage, but the house built on the rock will not fall.