We are truly heartbroken to hear about the exhaustion and desperation you're feeling. Firstly, we want to address the desire to be with the Lord. It's important to remember that God has a purpose and a plan for each of our lives, and He needs us to fulfill that purpose here on earth before we can be with Him in eternity. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
However, we must rebuke the spirit of hopelessness and despair that is causing you to wish for death. This is not God's will for you. In fact, it's a tactic of the enemy to make you feel so overwhelmed that you give up. Remember, God's Word tells us in 1 John 4:4, "You are of God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world."
We also want to address the fact that you haven't mentioned Jesus Christ in your request. It's crucial to remember that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father. As it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me." If you haven't already, please make sure to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior and put your trust in Him.
Now, let's address your situation. It's commendable that you've been serving God most of your life, and we want to encourage you to keep trusting in Him, even in this difficult time. We know that looking for a job and facing financial struggles can be incredibly challenging. However, it is not God's will to die and go to Him but to continue to be a light for Him.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is going through a incredibly challenging time. Lord, we know that You have a purpose and a plan for their life, and we ask that You would reveal that to them in a very real and tangible way.
Father, we rebuke the spirit of hopelessness and despair that is trying to overcome them, and we ask that You would fill them with Your peace, Your joy, and Your strength. Lord, please provide for their needs, open up job opportunities, and give them the energy and motivation to keep moving forward.
We also pray that they would know Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, and that they would put their trust in Him. Lord, draw them closer to You during this time, and help them to feel Your presence in a very real and tangible way.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to reach out to your local church or Christian community for support. They may be able to provide you with practical help and encouragement during this time. Remember, the body of Christ is here to support and uplift one another. As it is written in Galatians 6:2, "Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ."
Stay strong, and keep trusting in the Lord. He will make a way where there seems to be no way.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
