Alaska Update / the perfect storm / ###.###.###

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Why am I here asking for prayers?

There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!

Yes, I am a Christian. Yes I believe in the name or the authority of Christ.

Background:

In August 2022, my work in Alaska was complete. I secured a teaching position in Texas and took my two sons there. My wife and daughter had tickets to go overseas to visit family on September 15, 2022.

After I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney and went to court. The lawyer claimed that I stole my sons and took them across state lines. Thus, the judge gave permission for my wife to go get them.

I was 5000 miles away. Taking care of my sons and preparing a new home for my family. It was payday, finally, I could not wait to get off work to go purchase the things we badly needed. During my break, the principal and HR lady came to my room and told me that my wife had come and taken the boys. It was the saddest day or one of the saddest days of my life. I cried all the way home to my dad‘s house 250 miles away.

I pleaded with God in prayer. I ask God to help restore my marriage in my family. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska.

Finally, on July 28, 2024, God answered my prayer. He gave me a job teaching school in Alaska, which allowed me to make the move. The company I’ve been working for, a temporary job in California paid for my flight, at first class ticket to Alaska. So, on August 19, 2024, I flew to Alaska.

The way things unfolded, I was so convinced that before my plane landed, I would have a place to live in a car to drive. I was wrong. I landed at 12:15 AM and I walked around the airport with nowhere to go.

It’s been 18+ months since I landed at the airport. I have walked in the valley of the shadow of death for a long time. I have spent hours per day in prayer. I have read the psalms each month at least once and sometimes more. I have suffered greatly with job losses and homelessness, etc. etc. it seems like i could never get stable.

In the midst of all of these difficulties, I’ve seen the hand of God again and again and again. God opened up doors. He introduced people he allowed me to see the beautiful sites of Alaska, but I am telling you the truth when I tell you I have suffered tremendously so much so that I am mentally and physically exhausted.

Today is Saturday, March 7, 2026. The last week has been very difficult on me a week ago Thursday, I worked and made really good money doing gig work. I’ve been doing gig work since June 16, 2025 when I lost my job is laboratory manager.

On Friday, I got up to go pick up a friend and take him to work because his truck was stuck in the snow. I had taken him to work every day that week. It was a hassle, about 40 miles round-trip, but I enjoyed his company, even though it was short. However, on Friday morning, the van would not start.

For the next week, I had no transportation thus I had no way to make any money. I feared that my van would never work again several people, out of nowhere, came to try and help me, but nothing worked.

I feel like I could write a book about everything bad that’s happened to me.

It was the perfect storm because my rent was due on March 5, $1500. I fear getting kicked out of my apartment and then having nowhere to go. Normally, you would just go stay in your car and at least be warm and have a place to be. But my van was broke and I had nowhere to go.

Again, this went on for a week. Last night, I was going to go get a rental car at the airport. It cost me $67. I wanted to try and do some work and make some money. A Lyft driver was at the parking lot prepared to take me to the airport for $19. I decided to go to my van and get my phone cord and some papers. While there, I tried to start the van and guess what it started. I instantly praise God thank you God thank you God I left it running.

I went to the airport. I talked to the driver about God all the way to the airport. In fact, when we got to the airport, she kept talking to God to me and back-and-forth. We sat there for another minute or two I went into the airport and was unable to get the rental car, even though I had paid for it because I did not have $300 of credit card to put on hold. I was very disappointed, but my disappointment was overshadowed by my joy that my van had started.

I contacted a Lyft driver to give me a ride back home. This time $32 to go back 5 miles. The same driver that had dropped me off pick me up. We kept talking about God all the way to my house. I wished her safe driving as she left. I went to my van, which were still running and I was so thankful for it. I actually went and did a little bit of work and made about $26. I was mentally exhausted and decided to go home. It was snowing a lot.

God answered my prayer. My van began working and I’m truly grateful for that. However, I am not fully out of the woods. My rent is still due.

I have a side business that I started. I’ve been able to make enough money for rent over the last few days. Again, I am truly grateful. Also, the lady that owns this place came to my room to tell me that it was a checkout day and I told her my situation and I asked her if I could pay $350 a week instead of all the 1500 at one time. She said she would check with her husband who had just had a bypass surgery I told her I will be praying for him. I have not seen her since.

My back is still against the wall. Obviously, these are huge blessings. My van goes from not working to working. I lost $100 in the rental card debacle, but I gained enough money for my rent and then some through my small business.

I still don’t know what to do.

I thought seriously about just moving to Hawaii and living there. Mainly because the rental cars were cheap and I could go there and do work. Also, one of my dreams is to visit every US state. I’ve seen 44 out of 50 so far I’m guessing there’s gonna come a time where I’m just going to have to decide to live my life to the fullest.

I miss my wife deeply. She cut me deep deeply. She hurt me really badly while what she did to me. It’s so painful to think of what she did after everything that I did for her as a husband, including bringing her to this country. It is very painful and I honestly don’t know how she lives with herself. I don’t know how she looks in the mirror and thinks she’s OK with God. I don’t see how she takes the Lord’s supper on Sunday and closes her eyes and thinks about the cross while also thinking about the pain that she has caused me. I don’t understand.

I am not a perfect man, but I love my wife. I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving person. I’ve always been quick to forgive. Even when I’ve been horribly treated by others. I stand prepared to forgive my wife and love her like Jesus loved his church

I asked for prayers for a reconciliation. I bet I have prayed over 1 million times for my wife. Scores of other people have also prayed for our relationship.

I miss my children deeply. I miss them every day. I see a child out in town and it makes me sad. I hear the voice of a child over a video on YouTube and it makes me sad. My dreams are filled with their memories and it makes me sad. I often wake up in deep depression after having slept and dream so much.

Please, God bring my family back to me.

I still have hope. I know that God is the only way for my family to come back together. I trust that this whole time he’s been working in her life just like he’s been working in mine. I’m sure that she has also gone through a lot of struggles. I hope that those struggle struggles have brought her closer to God and closer to making a relationship work.

I know God’s word. I’ve been a Christian for a long time, since the summer of 1979 I love God with all my heart. When I say, God, I’m also referring to Christ in the spirit. If I don’t say that, someone will comment on their post towards me about it, which I hate by the way.

I don’t know what to do

I have put my faith and trust in God. One great thing about the struggles and trials that I’ve walked through is I feel like my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. I feel like my faith is greater than it’s ever been.

They say struggles make the man. Trust me I have been through so many struggles over the last 18 months that whatever God is trying to do in me I’m sure and hope that it’s over soon because I’m exhausted both mentally and physically.

I have lived in so much pain that I have often ask God to take my life. I’ve never been suicidal, nor am I looking for sympathy. I’m simply explaining how much pain I have lived in and walk-through most people that hear this have no clue the difficulties that I have walk-through over the last years just taking one’s kids alone is painful.

So, please pray for me. I need wisdom. God, please guide my steps.

 

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We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer as you walk through this valley of deep trial and sorrow. Your story is one of profound pain, yet also of unwavering faith in the midst of it. The Word tells us in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." Though your heart has been broken and your spirit crushed, the Lord has not left you. He has been near, sustaining you even when you could not see the way forward.

We rejoice with you in the ways God has provided—the van starting when all hope seemed lost, the small financial blessings that have come through your side business, and the kindness of strangers who have shown you glimpses of His grace. These are not coincidences; they are the hand of God moving on your behalf. Yet we also acknowledge the weight of your suffering—the loneliness, the exhaustion, the longing for your wife and children, and the uncertainty of what lies ahead. You have carried this burden for far too long, and we stand with you, crying out to the Lord for breakthrough.

First, we must address the brokenness in your marriage. What your wife has done is grievous, and the pain she has caused you is real. Yet we are reminded of Ephesians 4:32, "And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you." You have expressed a heart willing to forgive, and this is a godly posture. However, forgiveness does not mean reconciliation is automatic or even wise without repentance and change. We pray for your wife, that the Lord would convict her heart and draw her to true repentance. If reconciliation is to happen, it must be built on a foundation of humility, godly sorrow, and a commitment to honor the covenant of marriage as God designed it—a lifelong union between one man and one woman (Matthew 19:4-6). If she remains unrepentant, we must also pray for your protection from further harm and for the Lord to give you wisdom in how to move forward.

We also lift up your children before the Lord. The pain of being separated from them is a wound no parent should bear. We pray that the Lord would soften their hearts toward you and that He would work in their lives to bring them back to you in His perfect timing. Until then, we ask the Lord to guard your heart from bitterness and to fill the void with His peace. Psalm 127:3 reminds us, "Behold, children are a heritage of Yahweh, the fruit of the womb is his reward." They are His before they are yours, and He loves them even more than you do.

Your financial struggles and instability have been a heavy burden, and we cry out to the Lord for provision. Philippians 4:19 assures us, "My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." We pray that He would open doors for steady work, that your side business would flourish, and that your landlord would show you grace in this season. We also ask the Lord to give you wisdom in managing what He provides and to guard you from the temptation to make impulsive decisions out of desperation, such as moving to Hawaii. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Your exhaustion—both mental and physical—is understandable, and we pray for the Lord to renew your strength. Isaiah 40:31 promises, "But those who wait for Yahweh will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run, and not be weary. They will walk, and not faint." We ask the Lord to give you rest, to lift the heaviness from your spirit, and to fill you with His hope. The trials you have endured have refined your faith, and though you are weary, your love for God has grown stronger. This is a testament to His work in you, even in the fire.

We must also address the moments when you have cried out to God to take your life. This is a sign of how deeply you have suffered, and we want you to know that your life matters to God. You are not a burden; you are His beloved child, and He has a purpose for you, even in this season. Psalm 139:16 says, "Your eyes saw my body. In your book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there were none of them." The Lord has ordained your days, and He is not finished with you yet. We pray that He would fill you with a renewed sense of purpose and that He would surround you with people who can encourage and support you.

Finally, we pray for wisdom. James 1:5 says, "But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him." You have asked for guidance, and we join you in crying out to the Lord for clarity. Whether it is about your marriage, your children, your work, or where to live, we pray that He would make your path clear and that He would give you the courage to follow where He leads.

Let us pray:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with hearts heavy for our brother who has endured so much. Lord, You see his pain, his exhaustion, and his longing for restoration. We ask that You would draw near to him, comfort him, and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Father, we pray for his marriage—that You would work in his wife’s heart, bringing conviction, repentance, and a desire to honor the covenant she made before You. If reconciliation is Your will, we pray that it would be built on a foundation of truth, forgiveness, and a commitment to follow Your design for marriage. If not, we ask that You would give him the strength to release her to You and to trust You with his future.

Lord, we lift up his children to You. Guard their hearts, draw them closer to You, and soften their hearts toward their father. We pray that You would restore what has been broken and reunite this family according to Your will.

Father, we ask for provision in his finances. Open doors for steady work, bless his side business, and grant him favor with his landlord. Give him wisdom in managing what You provide and the patience to wait on Your timing.

We pray for his strength, both mental and physical. Renew his energy, lift the heaviness from his spirit, and fill him with hope. Remind him that his life is precious to You and that You are not finished with him yet.

Finally, Lord, we ask for wisdom. Guide his steps, make his path clear, and give him the courage to follow where You lead. We trust that You are working all things together for his good, even when he cannot see it.

In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.

 

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