Alaska update / 1.26.26 / God?

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There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!

Thank you for praying for me. I have been walking in the valley of the shadow of death for sometime now. I appreciate your prayers.

Background:

In early February 2019, my family and I moved to Alaska to begin work with a small church. The church grew and we had 22 baptisms.

In my life, I’ve noticed that when good things are happen in the context of Christianity, Satan, that roaring lion, seek to end it or minimize it.

In August 2022, my job was complete. I had secured a position in Texas teaching school. Texas is my home state. My wife and older daughter had tickets to go overseas to visit family my two young sons and I flew to Texas to start the new job and set up our new home.

After my sons and I left Alaska, my wife hired an attorney, and together they went to court and convinced the judge that I had stolen the boys and taking them across state lines. The judge gave them permission to go get my sons. She and a sister in Christ secretly flew to Texas and took my sons in late September 2022. It was one of the saddest days of my life.

I am not a perfect man; however, I’ve always been good at forgiving others. I was determined through prayer to seek God‘s help in restoring my marriage and family. Initially, I had an attorney, but then I decided having an attorney was mistake and I would put my faith fully in God in Christ.

I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. Moving back to Alaska is not an easy task. It’s easy when you have a job and a home in a vehicle. Military personnel can make the transition easily because the government ships their car, provides their housing, etc..

As I waited for God to open up the door, God made provision for me again and again. He gave me a job which was temporary and it took me to California multiple times. I stayed in incredible hotels over 200 nights. I flew back-and-forth from California to Texas. I prayed everywhere you could imagine.

I prayed while driving. I prayed while in the air flying to the destination. I prayed in like 20 different states. I prayed next to the seashore. I prayed on the porch of the hotel. I prayed in the patio of the hotel. I prayed in the shower and in the hot tub and in the swimming pool, I prayed everywhere you could possibly imagine God please help me.

Finally, guy took me from Texas to California for a 30 day job. While there, the job got extended for another 30 days. It was during the second 30 days that I received a job offer from a school in Alaska. I accepted the position and the company that I work for had to pay for my flight to home so they flew me to Alaska for free. I flew first class which cost $850 for free.

However, I had no place to live in no car to drive. I searched four of those things, but was unsuccessful. However, I had a job and I felt like I could walk and possibly stay at the shelter. I had contacted the shelter several times, but could not get a straight answer if I could stay there or not.

On August 19, 2024, I boarded a flight from San Francisco to Alaska in first class. I must have quoted second Corinthians 5:7, 500 times we walked by faith and not by sight. Abraham was convinced that God would raise Isaac from the dead; likewise, I was convinced that somehow in someway, God would provide a place to live in a car to drive. I was so convinced that my wife would contact me via email or message me somehow, and instantly provide those things for me. I was wrong.

God did make provision. In Seattle, I boarded the flight and sat next to the window seat in the very first aisle. Only the opposite side of the aisle only by the other window there was a lady sitting there. Two other women got on the plane and ask her if she would go sit next to me. It was dark and so there was no need to sit next to the window and so she move next to me. Little that I know, she would be a kind soul throughout the flight. Upon landing, she and her husband would take me to the shelter a few days later she picked me up and took me out for lunch, and that was it.

I have now been in Alaska going on 18 months. It has been a struggle. However, I can see the hand of God again and again and again. When things seem to get really bad, God showed up and made provision in someway.

It was not easy. I dealt with some severe mental trauma and deep depression. I loved my wife and I loved my children deeply and I miss them terribly each and every day. Every birthday, every anniversary, every holiday, etc., etc. hit me hard with pain. There were days that I didn’t think I was gonna get out of bed or make it another day in this life.

I feel like I could write a book about this.

First, I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. The shelter was not a bad place to live, but it did make me feel like less of a person. Every day, I would get up and go teach school and coach basketball. I had a life outside the shelter.

Looking back, as a result of living in the shelter, I had to be in a program. As a veteran, it was natural for me to be in the veteran program. Because I was in the veteran program, the VA paid $700 to winterize my van. They also paid for nine months of rent.

Looking back, I can see the hand of God. By living at the shelter, God was making provision for me for over nine months of free rent.

In addition, when I lived in my first apartment for 5.5 months, I lived in $1 million house. The owner was a lady named Miss Lee. I had to move out of her house because she used it for Airbnb but a month later, she let me move into her primitive basement where I lived for 4.5 months for free again, I see the providential hand of God .

So, I have been in Alaska for 18 months and I have not paid one dollar in rent. Isn’t that amazing? I don’t write that to brag; instead I write that to praise the God of heaven who makes provision. He provided I wasn’t living in royalty or in a mansion, but I lived for free nonetheless. At one time, I even lived in the back of my van for 28 nights..

Jobs

I moved to Alaska to teach school and coach basketball. All was well. My basketball team was 6-1. My team respected me, and we loved working out together and preparing for games.

On November 20, 2024 the principal came in my classroom and told me to get my things. I lost my job due to a contract issue. It was very unfair; however, the school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025. God made provision.

When I first moved to Alaska, I got put into HR limbo for nearly 2 weeks. I had nothing to do. Money was short. So, I started doing gig work. Previously, I had never done any deliveries. I began to learn how to do them slowly, but surely little that I know, gig work would help me again and again.

On May 21, 2025, I got an incredible job working as a laboratory manager. It was the highest salary I’ve ever received I thought for sure. This was the hand of God. He had put me in a position where I could be stable and gonna go on into a normal life, however, three weeks later, I went into work and at the end of the day, I was given a piece of paper telling me that my job was over. I was so distraught.

I’ve been living in my van for 28 nights. However, the very day that I lost my job as a laboratory manager, I moved into the primitive basement where I lived for 4.5 months for free. 1000% free again, the hand of God was ever present (Ps 46:1).

Today is January 26, 2026. I have been unemployed since June 16, 2025 my number one source of income since then has been gig work. I have learned to replace my previous earnings with gig work. I can now make a full-time salary during gig work.

So what did Satan do? He took my vehicle away from me. I got a ridiculous ticket on the military base. I had three blowouts in six weeks. My van completely broke down and had to sit in the McDonald’s parking lot for nearly 2 weeks.

I felt like rocky because I kept getting hit in the stomach. Over and over again punched in the face punched in the stomach knocked down, but somehow with God‘s strength I was able to get back up. Thank you, God.

I love the rain. Every time it rains I quote Acts 14:17. So many times, in my life I’ve been going through a difficult time and suddenly it would start raining. In fact, the day I lost my job, at the lab, I left the lab and went to get a drink at a gas station, a sprite. As I sat there in the parking lot, it started raining. In fact, before I left the lab it started raining. The rain gave me strength.

I love moose. Next to the rain, I love seeing moose; they give me strength. Many times I pray that God would let me see a moose and that day or the next day I’d see one or two or three. Moose are not always available to be seen and one could go months without seeing one. But there they were. Even came right next to the house God was giving me strength.

I’ve seen the northern lights. The other night I came home from a not so great night of doing gig work. I I had hurt my back. I got out of the car at the house and looked up and the northern lights were right above me. It’s like guy was speaking right to me. In fact, in the video I made I made mention of that. I felt like God was speaking to me.

On December 29, 2024, I went to a mountain top to worship guide. It was a Sunday and I was prepared to take the Lord supper and watched the sunset behind Denali. It was -23°F.

I got outside my van to take a video of the beautiful scenery, and I went back to the van and my van was locked. I could not get into it. I did not panic. I walked around the van to see if maybe a window was open or a door a jar, but it was not. I began to pray that God would help me.

Soon after, I became very, very cold, and I began to have the symptoms of freezing. I could not talk. My face was numb. My ears were numb. My hands were numb. I looked for a rock to break a window, but I could only find like a piece of volcanic ash or something. He quickly broke when I threw it against the window as hard as I could I then decided to run down to the bottom of the mountain, hoping maybe someone was down there I went down there and there were these two beautiful women in an old truck long story short, they dropped what they were doing and headed up to the top of the mountain, giving me a ride and then help me in my Van to this date, I’ve wondered if they were angels. They saved my life that day. I think I would’ve been dead within an hour.

Today:

My son’s birthday was a few days ago. I miss him terribly. I knew the day was coming two months ago and I thought about how sad I would be. I was right. I was very sad. I do felt like God gave me strength to endure.

Tomorrow, I have a meeting with the VA. They will tell me that I’ve got one more month of free rent. That will be it on March 5, 2026, I will need to move out of this studio apartment. As it stands right now, I have no idea where I will go. However, one thing I do believe is based on past experiences God will make provision. Something will happen in the next few weeks and open door will make its way open. I believe that.

I enjoy doing gig work. It’s not fun and -49°F, but I have enjoyed doing it since my van broke, I have rented a vehicle. However, I know the rental prices are about to go up significantly, even doubling and tripling in price. When I first got to Alaska in August 2024, rental cars were $150 a day.

Am I afraid? I would be lying to you and anyone that reads this if I said no. I am afraid but my fear is tempered by the reality that God is fully aware and he’s helping in the past and I’m confident he’llhelp me in the near future.

Lately, I’ve been looking at doing some small businesses. I started one based on some things I’ve done back in 2006 and today I had some incredible success making well over $2000. In addition, I made $1000 in another business that I started. I don’t say that to brag, but I say that to make note of the fact that God is making provision.

I believe that we as Christians do our best to make plans and to take care of our ourselves, but we depend up on God to open up the doors. In my case, I’ve proven to God that I’m willing to walk through the door if you’ll open it for me.

In less than 45 days, I will be homeless again. My plan right now is to move back to Texas to be near my dad, but I do not have a job there. I do not have a place to live except at my dad’s house so, I’m weighing this decision carefully.

Of course, the number one reason I move back to Alaska was hoping that the close proximity would lead to the reconciliation of my family. I still hope that I still pray for that every day many times a day.

Maybe just maybe something I’ve written here will be an encouragement to someone else who’s going through the valley of the shadow of death. I am confident God will provide. I don’t know how he will provide but looking back I can definitely see the hand of God.

God put me in the shelter so that I would have temporary shelter and then nine months of free rent in the next year.

God allowed me to be in HR limbo so that I could learn how to do gig work because that gig work would bless me for the next 18 months. Sometimes more than other months.

God put a number of different people in my life. Some were very helpful and very kind. Some appeared just for a few days and others for a few months, but then quickly exited. It’s amazing to me when I think about the people that God used.

For example, when my wife and a sister in Christ flew from Alaska to Texas to steal my sons, the janitor that cleaned my room became my best friend. He and I would talk every day for like an hour or two just back-and-forth talking about trusting in God and God working in our lives. Before that, our conversations were just casual as he clean my room I miss him.

In all these things, I feel like my love for God is stronger now than it’s ever been. I feel like my faith is stronger that’s ever been. I am not perfect or without flaw, but I feel like I am walking with God.

Please continue to pray for me.

 

[Articles]

We hear your cry from the depths of this valley, and our hearts break with yours. You have walked through fire and flood, yet your faith has not wavered—this is the testimony of a man who knows the Shepherd’s voice even in the shadow of death. The enemy sought to devour you, but the Lord has preserved you, and in His providence, you have seen His hand move in ways that defy human logic. We stand with you now, lifting your burdens before the throne of grace, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.

First, we must address the brokenness of your marriage with boldness and truth. What your wife has done—seeking legal means to separate you from your children, acting in secrecy and deception—is not of God. Scripture is clear: *"Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord... Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her"* (Ephesians 5:22, 25 WEB). The tearing apart of a family is a grievous sin, and we must rebuke the spirit of division that has sought to destroy what God has joined together. Yet we also know that restoration is possible, for *"with God all things are possible"* (Matthew 19:26 WEB). We pray fervently for repentance, reconciliation, and healing in your marriage—for your wife to return to the Lord and to the covenant she made before Him.

But we must also speak plainly about the sin of bitterness. You have shown remarkable grace in forgiving those who have wronged you, but we sense the deep pain that lingers. *"See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness springs up to cause trouble, and by it many become defiled"* (Hebrews 12:15 WEB). The enemy would love for you to grow hard-hearted, to let anger fester, but we pray that God would give you a spirit of forgiveness—not for their sake, but for yours. Forgiveness does not mean what they did was right; it means you refuse to let their sin chain you any longer.

We see the hand of God in your story, brother. The way He provided shelter when you had none, how He opened doors for work when others closed, how He sent strangers—perhaps even angels—to rescue you in your darkest hour. You have lived out *"faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen"* (Hebrews 11:1 WEB). Yet we must also warn you: the enemy is not done. He will continue to attack your finances, your health, your peace of mind. But we declare over you: *"No weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and every tongue that will rise against you in judgment you will condemn"* (Isaiah 54:17 WEB). The Lord is your shield, your strong tower, your provider.

Now, about your immediate needs: we pray for the meeting with the VA tomorrow. May the Lord soften hearts and open doors for continued provision. We pray for wisdom as you consider returning to Texas—may God make your path clear, whether it be through an open door of employment, a place to stay, or a divine appointment you cannot yet see. And we pray for your sons, that the Lord would guard their hearts, protect them from deception, and draw them back to their father. *"Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it"* (Psalm 127:1 WEB). Let your prayers for them be like incense before the throne, rising day and night.

We also must address the weight of depression and trauma you carry. The enemy would love for you to believe you are alone, that your pain is too great to bear. But hear this: *"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit"* (Psalm 34:18 WEB). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. The same God who parted the Red Sea, who raised Jesus from the dead, is the God who walks with you in this valley. We pray for healing—emotional, spiritual, and physical. May the Lord lift the heaviness from your soul and fill you with His peace that surpasses all understanding.

And to the matter of your faith: you have walked by faith, not by sight, and this pleases the Lord. But we must ask—have you surrendered *fully*? Have you laid every fear, every doubt, every "what if" at the foot of the cross? *"Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you"* (1 Peter 5:7 WEB). The Lord does not call you to figure it all out; He calls you to trust Him. Even now, as you face homelessness in 45 days, we declare: *"The young lions do lack and suffer hunger, but those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing"* (Psalm 34:10 WEB). He *will* provide. He *has* provided. And He *is* providing, even now.

We also lift up your business ventures. The Lord delights in blessing His children, but we must caution you: do not let provision become an idol. *"For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil"* (1 Timothy 6:10 WEB). Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you. Let your work be an act of worship, not a means of control.

Finally, we must speak to the foundation of your faith. You have mentioned God, the Lord, and the Spirit—but not once have you spoken the name that is above every name: Jesus Christ. There is no salvation, no access to the Father, no victory over the enemy apart from Him. *"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12 WEB). Jesus is not just a teacher, a prophet, or a good man—He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. The blood He shed on the cross is the only payment for sin, and His resurrection is the guarantee of your victory. If you have never surrendered your life to Him, do so now. Confess your sins, repent, and receive Him as Lord. For *"if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved"* (Romans 10:9 WEB).

Now, let us pray:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, yet full of faith. We lift up our brother who has endured so much—betrayal, loss, homelessness, and deep sorrow. Lord, You see his tears; You know his pain. We ask that You would meet him in this valley and lead him to green pastures. Restore what the enemy has stolen. Heal his marriage, reunite his family, and let Your peace reign in his heart.

We rebuke the spirit of division that has sought to destroy this family. We declare that what God has joined together, no man—and no court—can separate. Father, soften his wife’s heart. Bring conviction, repentance, and a return to You. Let her see the error of her ways and seek reconciliation.

Lord, we pray for provision. Open doors no man can shut. Provide shelter, employment, and stability. Let Your hand move in ways that defy human understanding. Give him wisdom as he makes decisions, and let Your peace guard his heart and mind.

We pray for healing—emotional, spiritual, and physical. Lift the weight of depression and trauma. Replace sorrow with joy, fear with faith, and despair with hope. Let him feel Your presence in the rain, in the moose, in the northern lights—let every sign point him back to You.

And Father, we pray for his faith. Strengthen it. Deepen it. Let him walk so closely with You that the enemy flees. Let his testimony be a light to others who are walking through their own valleys.

We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the name above every name, the name by which we are saved, the name by which we have access to You. May Your will be done in his life, and may he bring glory to Your name in all things.

Amen.

 

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"Hey there! I hope this message finds you well. I've been thinking about your situation and I wanted to reach out and let you know that you're not alone in this. It sounds like you've been through a lot, and I admire your strength and resilience. I can see that you've been walking through a deep valley, but you haven't lost your faith. That's inspiring!

I want to encourage you to keep going, one step at a time. It might feel overwhelming at times, but remember that even the darkest night will pass. Keep your eyes on the prize and trust that God has a plan for you. He's got this!

I also want to remind you to take care of yourself. It's okay to ask for help and to accept it when it's offered. You don't have to go through this alone. Reach out to your support network, whether it's friends, family, or professionals. They're there for you.

Lastly, I want to encourage you to keep your hope alive. It might feel hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now, but it's there. Keep fighting, and remember that you're not alone. You've got this!

Take care, and keep the faith. You're doing great!"

 

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I have prayed for this in the precious name of Jesus. Amen