Justbecause5
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There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
Oh October 9, 2023, I celebrated my birthday by reading all the Psalms in one day. Since then, I have read them almost every month. They have helped me cope through all my trials; they have been like a B12 shot.
In August 2022, my boys and I left Alaska and went to Texas to start a new job and set up our home. My wife and daughter were going overseas to visit family. After we left, my wife hired an attorney, and they went before the judge and made it seem like I stole the boys and took them cross state lines. I was 5000 miles away and unaware of their actions.
In late September 2022, during my conference period, the principal and HR lady came to my room and told me that my wife and another lady had taken my boys. It was one of the saddest days of my life. I receive permission to go to my dad‘s house 250 miles away. I cried all the way and almost died half a dozen times.
I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. Finally, on August 19, 2024, God opened a door, and I flew to Alaska. The way things had lined up, I was confident that my wife would contact me before the plane landed thus providing me with a place to live in a vehicle. I was incorrect. The plane landed at 12:15 AM and I had no place to go. I went to the shelter.
I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. Each day, I was confident God was doing something. The next year would be incredibly difficult with ups and downs, mainly downs. I lost four really good paying jobs. I lived in the shelter, in the back of my van, and in a roach infested basement. I was severely burdened by deep sadness and depression. All and all, I was confident God was working.
Fast-forward to November 2025, I am still all alone. However, I can see blessings in my life. I recently moved out of the roach infested basement and into an apartment, which is free for four months courtesy of the VA. I do gig work every day and I’ve gotten pretty good at it to the point where I can make a full-time salary. This morning I made $200 and four hours of work.
I am still deeply sad, but the fact that God has done those things from me has made me stronger.
Six nights ago my van died. It’s my source of income. I was able to make it to a McDonald’s parking lot. I thought it would be safe there. I looked at my Lyft app and I had a free credit and so I used it to go to my new apartment and then rented a vehicle from a friend of mine for $40 a day.
The next day I went to go look at my van and I discovered that someone had stuck a pipe in the gas tank and stole approximately $50 worth of gas. I was very sad and disappointed that someone would do something like that to someone who was obviously down on their luck. I remembered what the psalm said about those that lurk and seek to hurt others. It’s not good for them.
A day or so later, I rented a vehicle from the airport for $20 a day and it’s a much better vehicle than the $40 vehicle with all-wheel-drive, much better, gas mileage, etc. I secured it for eight days. I picked it up Sunday night. I’ve been using it ever since to work.
Yesterday, I had an interview with a company that test drives prototype cars. I’ve worked for a similar company on four different occasions, but it’s temporary work. It would be nice to have a regular job whereby I’m not having to put so much energy and gas into my own vehicle. I haven’t heard back, but I think the interview went very well.
I love my wife deeply. I miss her terribly. I’m guessing I have prayed for her and my children at least 1 million times since August 2022 I often talk to God and I tell him God I stand prepared to love my wife like Christ love the church. I stand prepared to forgive my wife for everything she’s done and to move forward and not backward. I stand prepared to be a great husband and a great father. God please bring my wife back to me.
I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving person. I’ve been punched in the face a few times, and I was the one that immediately reached out to shake the other person‘s hand, not in the sense of surrender, but in the sense of seeking peace And not warfare. My wife has done some really bad things to me, some really mean things to me, some really hateful things to me, but I stand prepared to forgive her.
I am so hoping and praying that “ weeping will soon turn into joy”. I’m so hoping that my mourning can turn into dancing. I sincerely hope and pray many times per day that those things will come to pass soon..
The biggest thing that keeps me going is the reality that heaven knows. Heaven knows exactly where I am right now (Ps 139). Heaven knows that I am deeply saddened by my condition and that I’m hoping and praying that my wife will come to her senses, repent, and return to her husband.
I really believe God brought me back to Alaska. Looking back, it’s easy to see the presidential steps that we’re taking and provided by God. God open the door and I walked through the door trusting that it was the door he had provided. The last year has been very very tough, but I’m confident that God is right with me.
When I say, God, obviously I’m referring also to Christ, our Lord and redeemer. By the way, this is not a prayer but a prayer request.
My wife drives a bus, a school bus. That’s the last I heard. It makes sense because up here bus drivers make nearly $28 an hour. It’s much more than $13-$15 per hour that she was making at a grocery store. I do not wish you will on her but as a teacher, I know how difficult bus drivers can have it. Teachers have it bad enough, and they are usually facing the students. Bus drivers have their back to the students And all kinds of bad things are going on behind the scenes .
Again, I do not wish ill on my wife; however, if a big fish swallowed her up for a few days, I would not blink an eye. I hope that God is working in her life to cause her to rethink like the prodigal son who came to himself and decided going back home to his father and being a servant was better than his current condition.
I love my wife!
Love is a decision. Love is a choice. I’ll never forget the time. My wife told me that she did not love me. It was so painful considering all the wonderful things I had done for her and try to do for her in our family. In fact, I was moving back to Texas to start a new job in a school district, knowing all the ups and downs, it would take to get down there and get set up. My wife and daughter we’re going overseas and when they returned, they would simply walk into a home that I prepared for them.
I will say this in closing…
In the last year, I have walked in the pits of hell. I have shed so many tears. There have been times I cried uncontrollably to the point where I could barely see.
There have been moments where I didn’t wanna leave the bed but I had to. I had to go deliver some food so that I had money for gas or money for food or money for fixing the car, etc..
I am 1000% confident that God is working in my life. I see the fruit of the things he’s provided, but the thing that I learned for the most is my family being together again.
I’m confident God is working.
I so hope that I can come back to this thread one day in the near future, notice I said near future and report that all is well and my family is together. I hope!
Thank you for your prayers.
Oh October 9, 2023, I celebrated my birthday by reading all the Psalms in one day. Since then, I have read them almost every month. They have helped me cope through all my trials; they have been like a B12 shot.
In August 2022, my boys and I left Alaska and went to Texas to start a new job and set up our home. My wife and daughter were going overseas to visit family. After we left, my wife hired an attorney, and they went before the judge and made it seem like I stole the boys and took them cross state lines. I was 5000 miles away and unaware of their actions.
In late September 2022, during my conference period, the principal and HR lady came to my room and told me that my wife and another lady had taken my boys. It was one of the saddest days of my life. I receive permission to go to my dad‘s house 250 miles away. I cried all the way and almost died half a dozen times.
I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska. Finally, on August 19, 2024, God opened a door, and I flew to Alaska. The way things had lined up, I was confident that my wife would contact me before the plane landed thus providing me with a place to live in a vehicle. I was incorrect. The plane landed at 12:15 AM and I had no place to go. I went to the shelter.
I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months. Each day, I was confident God was doing something. The next year would be incredibly difficult with ups and downs, mainly downs. I lost four really good paying jobs. I lived in the shelter, in the back of my van, and in a roach infested basement. I was severely burdened by deep sadness and depression. All and all, I was confident God was working.
Fast-forward to November 2025, I am still all alone. However, I can see blessings in my life. I recently moved out of the roach infested basement and into an apartment, which is free for four months courtesy of the VA. I do gig work every day and I’ve gotten pretty good at it to the point where I can make a full-time salary. This morning I made $200 and four hours of work.
I am still deeply sad, but the fact that God has done those things from me has made me stronger.
Six nights ago my van died. It’s my source of income. I was able to make it to a McDonald’s parking lot. I thought it would be safe there. I looked at my Lyft app and I had a free credit and so I used it to go to my new apartment and then rented a vehicle from a friend of mine for $40 a day.
The next day I went to go look at my van and I discovered that someone had stuck a pipe in the gas tank and stole approximately $50 worth of gas. I was very sad and disappointed that someone would do something like that to someone who was obviously down on their luck. I remembered what the psalm said about those that lurk and seek to hurt others. It’s not good for them.
A day or so later, I rented a vehicle from the airport for $20 a day and it’s a much better vehicle than the $40 vehicle with all-wheel-drive, much better, gas mileage, etc. I secured it for eight days. I picked it up Sunday night. I’ve been using it ever since to work.
Yesterday, I had an interview with a company that test drives prototype cars. I’ve worked for a similar company on four different occasions, but it’s temporary work. It would be nice to have a regular job whereby I’m not having to put so much energy and gas into my own vehicle. I haven’t heard back, but I think the interview went very well.
I love my wife deeply. I miss her terribly. I’m guessing I have prayed for her and my children at least 1 million times since August 2022 I often talk to God and I tell him God I stand prepared to love my wife like Christ love the church. I stand prepared to forgive my wife for everything she’s done and to move forward and not backward. I stand prepared to be a great husband and a great father. God please bring my wife back to me.
I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving person. I’ve been punched in the face a few times, and I was the one that immediately reached out to shake the other person‘s hand, not in the sense of surrender, but in the sense of seeking peace And not warfare. My wife has done some really bad things to me, some really mean things to me, some really hateful things to me, but I stand prepared to forgive her.
I am so hoping and praying that “ weeping will soon turn into joy”. I’m so hoping that my mourning can turn into dancing. I sincerely hope and pray many times per day that those things will come to pass soon..
The biggest thing that keeps me going is the reality that heaven knows. Heaven knows exactly where I am right now (Ps 139). Heaven knows that I am deeply saddened by my condition and that I’m hoping and praying that my wife will come to her senses, repent, and return to her husband.
I really believe God brought me back to Alaska. Looking back, it’s easy to see the presidential steps that we’re taking and provided by God. God open the door and I walked through the door trusting that it was the door he had provided. The last year has been very very tough, but I’m confident that God is right with me.
When I say, God, obviously I’m referring also to Christ, our Lord and redeemer. By the way, this is not a prayer but a prayer request.
My wife drives a bus, a school bus. That’s the last I heard. It makes sense because up here bus drivers make nearly $28 an hour. It’s much more than $13-$15 per hour that she was making at a grocery store. I do not wish you will on her but as a teacher, I know how difficult bus drivers can have it. Teachers have it bad enough, and they are usually facing the students. Bus drivers have their back to the students And all kinds of bad things are going on behind the scenes .
Again, I do not wish ill on my wife; however, if a big fish swallowed her up for a few days, I would not blink an eye. I hope that God is working in her life to cause her to rethink like the prodigal son who came to himself and decided going back home to his father and being a servant was better than his current condition.
I love my wife!
Love is a decision. Love is a choice. I’ll never forget the time. My wife told me that she did not love me. It was so painful considering all the wonderful things I had done for her and try to do for her in our family. In fact, I was moving back to Texas to start a new job in a school district, knowing all the ups and downs, it would take to get down there and get set up. My wife and daughter we’re going overseas and when they returned, they would simply walk into a home that I prepared for them.
I will say this in closing…
In the last year, I have walked in the pits of hell. I have shed so many tears. There have been times I cried uncontrollably to the point where I could barely see.
There have been moments where I didn’t wanna leave the bed but I had to. I had to go deliver some food so that I had money for gas or money for food or money for fixing the car, etc..
I am 1000% confident that God is working in my life. I see the fruit of the things he’s provided, but the thing that I learned for the most is my family being together again.
I’m confident God is working.
I so hope that I can come back to this thread one day in the near future, notice I said near future and report that all is well and my family is together. I hope!
Thank you for your prayers.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
