Justbecause5
Humble Prayer Warrior
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
A few years ago, my wife left me and then stole my children. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska in hopes of reconciling my marriage family.
On August 19, 2024, God brought me back to Alaska. Since then, I have endured about every top of difficulty one could possibly imagine; it has been a very painful year.
There has been no sign of reconciliation, etc. I have lost three good jobs. I have basically been homeless most of the time. I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months and in the back of my van for 28 nights. I now live in a $1 million house in the basement.
Here are the positives:
Income$$
I have been unemployed since June 16, 2024. I have kept my head above water by doing gig work. I am no expert, but I have learned so much that I am able to survive.
Last week, I was able to secure a year-long ID that allows me to go on the local army base. That is a huge blessing because there are lots of orders on the base. So, that is a ++++.
Last week, I made the most I ever made doing cake work. And this week I have even made more than that. I spent a lot on gas, but I am figuring out how to make a living doing this. I’m so thankful to God.
Homeless
From January 6 until May 19, 2024, I lived in a beautiful apartment in a $1 million house. However, I had to move out because the owner uses it for Airbnb. So, I lived in my van for 28 nights.
On June 16, 2024, I lost my job as a laboratory manager. The same day… Let me emphasize the same day… The owner of the $1 million house allowed me to move into the basement for free. She still does not know that I do not have a job. I believe God opened that opportunity for me.
A few days ago, she told me that I could stay in the basement as long as I would operate the snow truck to clear the roads around the house during the winter. I’ve never done that, but I can drive a clutch and so I will give it my best shot.
It’s 4:30 AM and I have been out here doing gig work since about 2:00 AM.
My faith is strong. Trust me, I go through very weak moments where I feel hopeless and helpless. Which is one reason I keep coming back here asking for prayers. I know there’s power in prayer.
I read the psalms each and every month. I read the psalms twice in August and I am almost finished this month. I love the song so much; it’s like a B12 shot.
The pain I have endured is so much that I am surprised I’m still alive. I’m not suicidal, but I have prayed fervently that God would take my life and exchange it for someone who has recently passed.
I have tried to leave Alaska for other jobs, but it’s almost like God is keeping me here. God could have fully paved the way for those jobs, but he did not.
The providential hand of God is amazing to me. God opens up doors and then quickly shuts the ones he won’t shut for whatever reason I guess I’ll never understand.
A few weeks ago, a company I’d work for on four separate occasions contacted me about a manager position in South Carolina. I was highly recommended by the talent acquisition group, but in the end, I did not even get an interview.
The winter job that was supposed to begin October 1 driving Volkswagen vehicles in the Alaska climate has been canceled and will not start till late January. I was really depending on that as a means of income.
I have seen so many doors SHUT!!! I’m guessing I will not be able to see the full picture of what God has done or is doing until months or maybe years from now.
But based upon my human observations; it seems like God wants me to stay in Alaska. It seems like he wants me to stay right where I’m at for the moment; that’s my calculation.
I so hope and pray God will do something soon. My son’s birthday is in a few days and it will be very painful. I am the kind of father that does extra things to make birthdays special. So, birthdays, and holidays are very very difficult on me.
Dear prayer warriors, please pray.
Strength - I need strength (Phil 4:13). Today is September 6 and snow is probably within a month and possibly sooner. It’s one thing to do DoorDash now but what about in the winter when it’s -35°F. I’ve done it in the past and I trust that I’ll be able to do it now.
I miss my family deeply and dearly. I need strength to keep on living.
Job - DoorDash has been a wonderful means in providing income for me in my situation. This week that I’m on, I’ll make more money than I’ve made in the last several years in one week but it’s still DoorDash and gig work. I need a real job that pays me a real income.
Family - I need my family back together. I plead with God to bring my wife to repentance. She has done some evil things to me and I hope and pray that this whole time God has been working in her life. I hope.
I love my children so much. Every time I see two little boys as a family, it makes me sick at my stomach because I miss my children so badly. Sometimes, I have to do double takes to see if that was them walking down the road because they look very similar in age.
If I hear a small child laughing, it makes me so sad in my heart and mind because I miss my children so much.
My faith is strong!
I love God with all my heart. Yes, I love Jesus with all my heart. I’m asking and pleading with God to intercede in my life. Please God, send all the angels of heaven to fight against the demonic forces that have destroyed my family in my life. Please God allow the angel of the Lord to camp around me (Ps 34). I am exhausted.
There are days I just wanna stay in bed and cry and be sad… But my body says, "###, you’ve got to get up and go… You need to go make some money… You need to get some gas in the car which takes money… You need to get some food which takes money… You need to save some money for a rainy day…"
Please God help me I pray. Out of the depths, God, I pray to thee (Ps 130:1ff). TY.
A few years ago, my wife left me and then stole my children. I pleaded with God to take me back to Alaska in hopes of reconciling my marriage family.
On August 19, 2024, God brought me back to Alaska. Since then, I have endured about every top of difficulty one could possibly imagine; it has been a very painful year.
There has been no sign of reconciliation, etc. I have lost three good jobs. I have basically been homeless most of the time. I lived in the shelter for 4.5 months and in the back of my van for 28 nights. I now live in a $1 million house in the basement.
Here are the positives:
Income$$
I have been unemployed since June 16, 2024. I have kept my head above water by doing gig work. I am no expert, but I have learned so much that I am able to survive.
Last week, I was able to secure a year-long ID that allows me to go on the local army base. That is a huge blessing because there are lots of orders on the base. So, that is a ++++.
Last week, I made the most I ever made doing cake work. And this week I have even made more than that. I spent a lot on gas, but I am figuring out how to make a living doing this. I’m so thankful to God.
Homeless
From January 6 until May 19, 2024, I lived in a beautiful apartment in a $1 million house. However, I had to move out because the owner uses it for Airbnb. So, I lived in my van for 28 nights.
On June 16, 2024, I lost my job as a laboratory manager. The same day… Let me emphasize the same day… The owner of the $1 million house allowed me to move into the basement for free. She still does not know that I do not have a job. I believe God opened that opportunity for me.
A few days ago, she told me that I could stay in the basement as long as I would operate the snow truck to clear the roads around the house during the winter. I’ve never done that, but I can drive a clutch and so I will give it my best shot.
It’s 4:30 AM and I have been out here doing gig work since about 2:00 AM.
My faith is strong. Trust me, I go through very weak moments where I feel hopeless and helpless. Which is one reason I keep coming back here asking for prayers. I know there’s power in prayer.
I read the psalms each and every month. I read the psalms twice in August and I am almost finished this month. I love the song so much; it’s like a B12 shot.
The pain I have endured is so much that I am surprised I’m still alive. I’m not suicidal, but I have prayed fervently that God would take my life and exchange it for someone who has recently passed.
I have tried to leave Alaska for other jobs, but it’s almost like God is keeping me here. God could have fully paved the way for those jobs, but he did not.
The providential hand of God is amazing to me. God opens up doors and then quickly shuts the ones he won’t shut for whatever reason I guess I’ll never understand.
A few weeks ago, a company I’d work for on four separate occasions contacted me about a manager position in South Carolina. I was highly recommended by the talent acquisition group, but in the end, I did not even get an interview.
The winter job that was supposed to begin October 1 driving Volkswagen vehicles in the Alaska climate has been canceled and will not start till late January. I was really depending on that as a means of income.
I have seen so many doors SHUT!!! I’m guessing I will not be able to see the full picture of what God has done or is doing until months or maybe years from now.
But based upon my human observations; it seems like God wants me to stay in Alaska. It seems like he wants me to stay right where I’m at for the moment; that’s my calculation.
I so hope and pray God will do something soon. My son’s birthday is in a few days and it will be very painful. I am the kind of father that does extra things to make birthdays special. So, birthdays, and holidays are very very difficult on me.
Dear prayer warriors, please pray.
Strength - I need strength (Phil 4:13). Today is September 6 and snow is probably within a month and possibly sooner. It’s one thing to do DoorDash now but what about in the winter when it’s -35°F. I’ve done it in the past and I trust that I’ll be able to do it now.
I miss my family deeply and dearly. I need strength to keep on living.
Job - DoorDash has been a wonderful means in providing income for me in my situation. This week that I’m on, I’ll make more money than I’ve made in the last several years in one week but it’s still DoorDash and gig work. I need a real job that pays me a real income.
Family - I need my family back together. I plead with God to bring my wife to repentance. She has done some evil things to me and I hope and pray that this whole time God has been working in her life. I hope.
I love my children so much. Every time I see two little boys as a family, it makes me sick at my stomach because I miss my children so badly. Sometimes, I have to do double takes to see if that was them walking down the road because they look very similar in age.
If I hear a small child laughing, it makes me so sad in my heart and mind because I miss my children so much.
My faith is strong!
I love God with all my heart. Yes, I love Jesus with all my heart. I’m asking and pleading with God to intercede in my life. Please God, send all the angels of heaven to fight against the demonic forces that have destroyed my family in my life. Please God allow the angel of the Lord to camp around me (Ps 34). I am exhausted.
There are days I just wanna stay in bed and cry and be sad… But my body says, "###, you’ve got to get up and go… You need to go make some money… You need to get some gas in the car which takes money… You need to get some food which takes money… You need to save some money for a rainy day…"
Please God help me I pray. Out of the depths, God, I pray to thee (Ps 130:1ff). TY.