Alaska / Exhausted

[Justbecause5]

Greetings,

My wife left me and stole my children. She was in ### and I was in ###. I had left ### to go to ### to set up our new home and to start a new job.

After two years of prayer, God opened up an opportunity for me to go back to ###. Over the last year, I have suffered greatly as I have lost three good jobs and been homeless living in the back of my van, etc..

On the day I lost my last job (###), Ms ###, offered to let me stay in her basement apartment. She had previously been my landlord for ### months. She did not know I lost my job nor does she know anything about my marriage, etc..

Over the last few days, Ms ### has been really ugly to me. It makes me feel like a big loser. I feel terrible it all had to do with poor communication on her part. It made me want to leave immediately.

I have seriously thought I’m just selling my old van and moving back to ###. It makes me think that maybe it wasn’t God‘s will for me to come back up here. There has been no sign of reconciliation.

In my life, God is often worked in the midst of the duress. In difficulties, God was moving me to a new location or to a new job, etc. I’ve seen it happen to me again and again. I wonder if God is about to do something in my life based upon Ms ###’s ungodly actions.

I am exhausted.

I have been keeping my head above water by doing DoorDash and the like. But, I am exhausted. I have worked almost every day and night the last three or four weeks, but I took today off.

This morning, I went to go to DoorDash… It had snowed the night before. I was sitting there and a man came up to my door. I thought he wanted money, which I did not have any to give him instead, he asked me if I had a pair of shoes. I ended up giving him my shoes and I went home. He asked me to give him a hug and I did and we both cried.

I don’t say that to brag… It is just amazing how that little moment where that guy took my old shoes and put them on; he was barefooted on cold concrete after a snow… He just wanted some shoes to put on his feet. It made me feel good to help him even though it was not much.

Yes, I love Jesus Christ. Yes I believe in his authority in his name, etc..

Friends, I am just so exhausted. I am not going to work tonight. I’m just going to relax with the intent of working tomorrow.

God, please help me. I cry out onto you for help (Ps 130:1). I really wish God would just take me home to be with him. I’m exhausted from living here in this whole world. I have served God most of my adult life. I’m exhausted and I can’t take much more.

Please, God help me. Please God step into my life and help me. I’m so exhausted from the pain and the anguish.

 

[Articles]

We hear the deep weariness in your voice, brother, and we are grieved by the weight of the trials you are carrying. Your pain is real, and your exhaustion is understood—yet we must lift your eyes to the One who sees your suffering and promises to never leave you nor forsake you. You have cried out to God, and we join you in that cry, standing with you in the name of Jesus, who is your strength in weakness and your hope in despair.

First, we must address the sorrow of your broken marriage and the theft of your children. This is a grievous injustice, and the Lord sees it. Malachi 2:16 declares, *"For I hate divorce," says Yahweh, the God of Israel,* and we know this was not His design for you. Yet even in this, God is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Your wife’s actions do not define your worth or your future. The Lord can redeem what has been stolen—whether through reconciliation (if it aligns with His will and her repentance) or through His sustaining grace as you walk this path alone. We pray for your children, that God would protect their hearts and draw them to Himself, and that He would open doors for you to be reunited with them in a way that honors Him.

Your struggle with homelessness, job loss, and the cruelty of this woman you’ve been staying with are not lost on the Lord. Proverbs 19:17 reminds us, *"He who has pity on the poor lends to Yahweh; he will reward him."* Your act of giving your shoes to that barefoot man in the cold was a beautiful reflection of Christ’s love (Matthew 25:40). Even in your exhaustion, the Lord used you to be His hands and feet. That moment was no accident—it was a divine appointment to remind you that your life still has purpose, even when you feel like a "big loser." The enemy wants you to believe you are defeated, but God says you are *more than a conqueror* through Christ (Romans 8:37).

You questioned whether returning to this place was God’s will because of the hardship. But consider Joseph—sold into slavery, falsely accused, and imprisoned—yet God was with him in every step, preparing him for greater things (Genesis 50:20). Or Job, who lost everything yet declared, *"Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him"* (Job 13:15). Your suffering is not evidence of God’s absence; often, it is the very place He does His deepest work. Do not flee in despair before you see what He is about to do. Wait on Him, even when it hurts.

We must also speak truth into your weariness. You said, *"I really wish God would just take me home to be with him."* We understand the longing to be free from pain, but we gently rebuke this as a temptation to despair. Your life is not your own—you were bought with a price (1 Corinthians 6:20), and the Lord still has work for you here. Jesus Himself, in Gethsemane, prayed, *"Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done"* (Luke 22:42). Surrender your exhaustion to Him, but do not surrender your hope. The apostle Paul faced unimaginable hardships yet wrote, *"We are pressed on every side, yet not crushed; perplexed, yet not to despair; pursued, yet not forsaken; struck down, yet not destroyed"* (2 Corinthians 4:8-9). You are not destroyed, brother. You are being refined.

As for your immediate needs—provision, shelter, strength—we pray fervently:
*"Heavenly Father, we lift our brother before You, broken and weary, yet clinging to You. Lord, You are the God who sees (Genesis 16:13). You see his homelessness, his betrayal, his financial lack, and the cruelty he has endured. You are not blind to his tears. We ask You to provide for him supernaturally—open doors for stable work, a safe place to live, and restoration in his relationships. Give him wisdom about whether to stay or go, and let Your peace, which surpasses understanding, guard his heart (Philippians 4:7). Lord, renew his strength like the eagle’s (Isaiah 40:31). Remind him that his labor in You is not in vain (1 Corinthians 15:58). And Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair trying to overtake him. Fill him with Your joy, which is his strength (Nehemiah 8:10). Let him see Your hand move mightily in his life, even today. We ask this in the powerful name of Jesus, who bore our sorrows and carries our burdens. Amen."*

Brother, we urge you: do not isolate yourself. Seek out a local church body where you can be encouraged and held accountable. Share your needs with believers who can help practically and spiritually. And above all, keep your eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and finisher of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). He is your reward, your vindication, and your coming joy. This season is hard, but it is not the end of your story. The Lord is writing something greater than you can see right now.

*"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit."* (Psalm 34:18) Cling to that truth. You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are loved with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). Stand firm. The night is dark, but joy comes in the morning (Psalm 30:5). We are praying with you and for you—*not* that your pain would be removed immediately, but that God’s glory would be revealed *through* it, and that you would emerge stronger, wiser, and more dependent on Him than ever before. Keep fighting, brother. The battle is the Lord’s.

 

[hostadmin]

Dear friend,

We've been reading your post and our hearts go out to you. It's like you're carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, and we want you to know that you're not alone. We're here for you, and we're lifting you up in prayer.

First off, we want to validate your feelings. It's okay to be exhausted, to feel like a big loser, to wonder if maybe it wasn't God's will for you to come back here. You've been through so much, and it's completely normal to feel this way. But remember, even in the midst of all this, God is with you. He sees you, He knows your pain, and He promises to never leave you or forsake you.

We want to encourage you to keep trusting in God, even when it's hard. Like you said, He's often worked in the midst of duress in your life. He's moved you to new locations, new jobs, and He's even opened up opportunities for you to go back home. We believe that God is still at work in your life, and we're confident that He's not done with you yet.

We also want to encourage you to keep seeking God. Keep crying out to Him, keep asking Him for help. He hears you, and He's listening. We're joining you in prayer, asking God to provide for you, to give you wisdom about whether to stay or go, and to fill you with His joy and strength.

And finally, we want to remind you that you're loved. You're loved by God, and you're loved by us. You're not forgotten, you're not abandoned, and you're not alone. Keep standing firm, keep trusting in God, and remember that joy comes in the morning.

We're praying for you, brother. Keep fighting. The battle is the Lord's, and He's fighting for you.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

 

[Cinu]

Lord, we pray for this prayer and family for blessings healing and salvation. Heal and bless. May their lives be a praise and glory unto thee.
Come to the Lord's holy presence. Seek him with all your heart. Cling to his Word and meditate on it moment by moment by positive thoughts and joy in the heart (James 1:2-4), knowing that the Lord is good and to him be all the praise. Seek first God's kingdom and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Even though life may feel hard, the Lord's hand will be on you, and he will answer in his time. I am praying for you. Amen.

Some resources that might help.

Needs: - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19(KJV)

Salvation: - So they said "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved you and your household." Acts 16:31(NKJV)

Healing: - But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5(NKJV)

Fulfillment by the Holy Spirit: - Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6(KJV)

Persecutions: - But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. Luke 6:27-28(KJV)

Help in Prayer

Dwelling and Thriving in God’s grace where everything happens for good (Romans 8:28)

Pray that the Lord may open the eyes of the nations affected by coronavirus (Specifically forces against God’s people)

sermons

Be a Prayer Warrior: “Praying for others”