After spending my life, not listening to God's advice ...

[Anonymous]

After spending my life, not listening to God's advice or my intuition.

One day I decided to follow God's path, I knew that my time was coming I could feel it in my soul. I knew that I did not have many chances left to make a beautiful mark on earth. One day after I had destroyed everything and there was not much left for me to do, I turned fully to God, everything was suddenly beautiful and surreal, I decided to confront what was in my heart (that it was my time to die.) And this is what I would call judgement day.

As I faced this feeling I was shocked by the divinity and love of God that I saw everywhere, so much that my ego (the devil in me) was immediately revealed and was so obviously disgusting. I saw a flashback of my life and how I had blindly lived and hurt so many people, I knew that it was my time to pass on and my last chance to prove myself to God and to choose Him, not evil. Yet in this moment I chose ignorance, I chose to pretend that that little devil was me and I chose to let it take over my life again at the expense of the people I loved and knowing that it would mean a life of pain for them. The only benefit I got out of it was to be able to keep my body alive. Yet I also knew at the time that down the line I would regret this because I would suffer immensely and so would all of my family and friends. Yet I chose to keep my body alive over God's love and law.

What can I do? I am now spiritually blind with my selfishness again and the devil ruling and I believe it is too late.

 

[Nineteen51]

Here's a simple prayer, Dear God I know I'm a sinner, I know I am not where I want to be, and I want your forgiveness! I believe that Jesus died on the cross to pay the price for my sins. Please wash me clean from all sin, shame, and guilt, come into my life Jesus to be my Lord and Savior. I ask this in your name Jesus Amen!

 

[tina1]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[olivieandleaf]

thankyou I'll be praying non stop, thank you, god bless

 

[splendidtree]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[mina360]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Kat199023]

I struggle with my own walk with the Lord myself. I've said and done things I'm ashamed of. It's never too late to ask for forgiveness. Dear Lord, bless this person and forgive them with only the kindness and love you can give. In Jesus's name I pray amen.

 

[Stitcher]

God is not telling you to commit suicide -- that is a lie from Satan. With redemption and a change of life by salvation, reading the Bible, going to a good church and praying, to grow in Christ, you will actually be a BLESSING to your family and friends.

I prayed for this in Jesus' name, amen.

 

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