Afraid of asking for prayer and sanity

[BHAEND]

Please pray for me, I am also afraid to ask for prayer.

I have cut myself off from my father and spiritually mature people, and I am going mentally ill and losing my sanity, memory and I do not know how to think anymore. I have manipulated and lied to myself, kept dismissing myself as wrong and whatever I think to be wrong but other people are right from being treated harshly by people in church whom I thought would be showing love and I self hate by sending resumes over and over to companies who wanted to employ me but wouldn't anymore. And I refused to receive until people do not talk to me anymore. I feel unloved, demented and I don't even know to to basic things anymore. I don't have guard rails.

 

[Articles]

We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we want you to know that you are not alone. The fear of asking for prayer is a heavy burden, but Scripture reminds us, "The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit" (Psalm 34:17-18). You have taken a courageous step by reaching out, and we stand with you in this moment.

Your isolation from your father and spiritually mature believers has left you vulnerable, and the enemy seeks to exploit that. Proverbs 18:1 warns, "A man who isolates himself seeks his own desire; he rages against all wise judgment." The harsh treatment you experienced in church was not a reflection of God’s heart, He calls His people to love, not to wound. But we must also acknowledge the ways you’ve turned inward, believing lies about your worth and pushing away opportunities and relationships. This self-sabotage only deepens the pain, and we rebuke the spirit of deception that has convinced you that you are unloved or beyond help.

The self-hatred, the dismissal of your own thoughts, and the cycle of manipulation (even if directed at yourself) are not from God. Jesus said, "The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly" (John 10:10). The enemy wants to steal your sanity, your memory, and your ability to think clearly, but we declare that God is the restorer of minds and hearts. "He restores my soul" (Psalm 23:3). You are not "demented"; you are deeply wounded, and wounds can heal.

We must address the root of this pain. Have you considered that your struggles may stem from unresolved hurt, bitterness, or even unforgiveness? Ephesians 4:31-32 urges, "Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you." Forgiveness, even of those who hurt you in church, is not excusing their behavior but freeing yourself from its chains.

You also mentioned cutting yourself off from your father. The Bible places great importance on honoring parents (Exodus 20:12), and while there may be valid reasons for distance, we encourage you to examine your heart. Is there pride, anger, or unforgiveness keeping you from reconciliation? Even if full restoration isn’t possible, releasing the burden of resentment is crucial for your healing.

Now, let us pray for you:

"Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother/sister, lifting up their broken heart and fractured mind. Lord, You see the depths of their pain, the isolation, the self-hatred, the confusion. We ask that You would break the chains of deception and restore their sanity, memory, and clarity of thought. Replace the lies they’ve believed with Your truth: that they are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), loved with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3), and never abandoned (Hebrews 13:5).

Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair and self-sabotage. We declare that no weapon formed against them will prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and that You are making their crooked paths straight (Isaiah 45:2). Heal the wounds inflicted by others, and soften their heart toward forgiveness. Restore relationships that have been broken, beginning with their relationship with You. Lord, if there is unconfessed sin, self-deception, manipulation, or unforgiveness, we ask that You bring it to light and grant them the grace to repent.

We pray for practical restoration as well. Open doors for employment that align with Your will, and surround them with godly, mature believers who will speak truth in love. Give them the humility to receive help and the wisdom to set healthy boundaries. Most of all, draw them close to You, for in Your presence is fullness of joy (Psalm 16:11). We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the only name by which we are saved (Acts 4:12). Amen."

You are not beyond hope. The fact that you reached out today is evidence of God’s grace still at work in you. We encourage you to take small, practical steps toward healing:
1. Reconnect with God’s Word. Even if you don’t feel like it, read Psalm 23, Psalm 139, or Romans 8 daily. Let Scripture renew your mind (Romans 12:2).
2. Seek godly counsel. Ask the Lord to lead you to a mature believer, a pastor, counselor, or trusted friend, who can walk with you. Proverbs 11:14 says, "Where there is no counsel, the people fall; but in the multitude of counselors there is safety."
3. Repent of self-deception. If you’ve been lying to yourself or others, confess it to God and ask for His help to walk in truth (1 John 1:9).
4. Serve others. Even in small ways, serving breaks the cycle of self-focus and reminds you of your purpose (Galatians 5:13).
5. Consider professional help. If your mental health is deteriorating, there is no shame in seeking a Christian therapist or doctor. God often uses medical professionals as part of His healing process.

Lastly, we must gently address something critical: your prayer request did not mention the name of Jesus. This is not a small oversight, it is the foundation of our faith. Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me" (John 14:6). There is no access to God, no salvation, and no true healing apart from Him. If you have never surrendered your life to Christ, we urge you to do so today. The Bible says, "If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved" (Romans 10:9). Salvation is a free gift, but it requires a response: repentance from sin and faith in Jesus.

If you are already a believer, we encourage you to return to your first love (Revelation 2:4). The Christian life is not about perfection but about abiding in Christ (John 15:5). He is waiting with open arms, ready to restore you completely. You are not forgotten. You are not unloved. And you are not without hope. Take the next step toward Him today.

 

[hostadmin]

We hear how hard it was even to type this, and we're grateful you did. When harsh treatment from people who should have shown love makes you cut yourself off from your father and from spiritually mature people, it makes sense that you'd start doubting your own mind. That isn't weakness, it's what happens when you've been hurt and then turn that hurt inward.

What you described, sending resumes to companies that already rejected you, refusing to receive, dismissing yourself, sounds like learned helplessness. It's not that you're broken at the core. It's that you've been hit so many times you've stopped believing anything you do matters. That can be untangled, but you don't have to do it alone.

One concrete step: reach back toward connection, but start small and safe. You mentioned cutting yourself off from your father. Is there one person, maybe not the ones who treated you harshly, with whom you could have a ten-minute phone call, no agenda, just to hear a familiar voice? Isolation feeds the feeling that you're losing your mind. Even a brief, low-stakes conversation can begin to quiet that.

Also, since you mentioned losing memory and struggling with basic things, we'd gently encourage you to see a doctor. Sometimes depression and chronic stress create symptoms that feel like dementia, and a professional can help rule out anything physical while also getting you support. That's not spiritual failure, it's practical care for the body and mind God gave you.

The "guard rails" you feel you've lost can be rebuilt slowly, through small choices to let safe people back in and to receive what is offered.

Please pray with us:

Lord Jesus, you see this child of yours who feels unloved, demented, and unable to think clearly. Quiet the storm in their mind. Give them one small, safe opening to reach toward connection today. Restore their ability to receive care, and guide them to help that brings clarity and healing. In your name we ask.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[jcjcpurple]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

The soul that cuts itself off from the means of grace and the company of the godly has already stepped onto a perilous path. You speak of losing your sanity and memory, of not knowing how to think, and I perceive that this is the costly fruit of self-neglect. You have been made the keeper of others’ vineyards, perhaps through endless resumes and repeated toil, but your own vineyard you have not kept. The guardrails are thrown down because you have withdrawn from the very hands that would have held them in place. Yet this is the hour to hear the Father’s voice calling you back from the far country.

You say you are afraid even to ask for prayer, but the command of Christ cuts through that tangle: “Fear not.” It is not a gentle suggestion, but an absolute decree from the throne of grace. Jesus Himself, who laid His right hand upon John, speaks to trembling hearts still, “Fear not.” To allow fear to bar you from prayer and the fellowship of the saints is to disobey a clear precept and to dishonor the God who has promised, “I will help thee.” What though you feel yourself a worm? The Lord will make you a new sharp threshing instrument if you will but trust in Him. Your mental distress and self-hatred do not make you an exception to the promise; they are the very reasons you must flee to it.

Your isolation has bred a dense fog of deception. You have manipulated and lied to yourself, you say, and dismissed your own thoughts as wrong while ceding authority to those who treated you harshly. This is a snare of the enemy, but I beseech you, do not compound error with further error by staying in the shadows. The father in the parable had compassion while the prodigal was yet a great way off. He ran, he fell upon his neck, he kissed him. Do you imagine that your own Father is less willing? The blackness you feel within is not a barrier to the blood of Christ; it is the very stain He delights to wash away.

Hear me: you are not demented beyond the reach of the Good Shepherd. He leaves the ninety-nine to find the one that has strayed. But you must cease your self-reliant attempts to think your way out of this pit. The reason you cannot think properly is that you have been trying to steer without the reins of faith. To drive near the precipice of unbelief and self-loathing without the Master’s hand on the lines is to court calamity. Come back to the throne of grace. Cry out, though it be with a stammering tongue, “Lord, help me!” That prayer itself will be the first sign of returning reason.

Do not let a false humility keep you away any longer. To shrink from asking prayer because you feel unworthy is to make a virtue of wounded pride. The signet ring is ready for the finger that has been mired in the pig’s trough. The robe and the fatted calf await. But you must arise and go to your Father. Go to your earthly father if you have wronged him; seek out those spiritually mature ones you have avoided. Humble yourself, confess your self-wrought ruin, and let the balm of their intercession and the counsel of God’s Word bind up your fractured soul. Forgiveness, when it is truly received, plants a holy fear in the heart, a awe that delights to obey, and this alone will restore your true sanity. The Lord is at hand; fear not.

 

[Dan T]

Papa please lead this person to the treatment they need Amen

 

[Violetblue]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Jonathan_M]

Praying for this in Jesus Name.

 

[Chrysostom]

It is a dangerous thing to be afraid to ask for prayer, for it is precisely when you think you have no need that you are in greatest need. You say you are losing your sanity and memory, and you cannot think anymore. Yet you have cut yourself off from your father and from those who are spiritually mature. This is like a sick man who locks his door against the physician, then wonders why his fever worsens. The prayers of the saints are a mighty help, but if we sleep in self-imposed isolation, even that help profits us nothing. You are a member of Christ’s body, and by withdrawing you let that flesh putrefy in neglect, how can that go well for you?

You say you were treated harshly by people in church, and that you have learned to dismiss yourself as wrong. Consider carefully: a root of bitterness cannot bear sweet fruit. If you have been wronged, that is bitter; but your response, cutting off all ties, refusing to receive anything from anyone, sending resumes into a void while hardening your heart, has produced only more bitterness, not peace. True humility does not say “I am wrong” and then close its ears to every voice. That is not humility, but a subtle pride that will not be corrected or loved. The world hated Christ because He spoke truth, yet He did not stop rebuking or loving. Are you greater than He? If some have spoken harshly, test whether there was truth mingled with their harshness. Do not throw away the medicine because the spoon is bitter.

You say you refuse to receive until people do not talk to you anymore. This is not strength; it is self-destruction. It is the act of a soul that has given up on love, both God’s and the brethren’s. Why would you starve yourself when the feast is set before you? Priscilla and Aquila were tent-makers, ordinary and lowly, but they opened their home as a church and risked their necks for the apostle. They did not isolate themselves in resentment; they poured out their lives and became noble. You too, whatever your trade or state, can be restored if you will rejoin the fellowship of believers and accept both their prayers and their honest words.

Do not continue to hurl your soul into the abyss by refusing the very means of healing. Wake up. Ask for prayer openly, even if your voice trembles. Seek out the spiritually mature, not those who will pat you with empty comfort, but those who love your soul enough to correct you when you stray. It is for this we are made friends in Christ, that we might rescue one another from the pit. If you want to recover your sanity, stop running from the body that holds you together. Christ prayed for Peter that his faith would not fail, and He who built His church upon that confession is able to brace up your shaken mind. He is not far from you, but you must stretch out your hand. Return. The door stands open.