Anonymous
Beloved of All
My husband has been physically, emotionally, spiritually, and sexually abusive to me for years. He has always cheated on me but I thought once we got married in ###, it would stop. He committed adultery the first 2 weeks of our marriage because he said that he didn't get over me seeing someone else while we were separated. He was in a relationship and so was I. I became pregnant by the person but didn't know it when we got back together so he has used that to be with several women, bust my eardrum, put his hands on me, etc. After 9 years of this abuse, in ###, I committed adultery and now he can't handle what he dished out. To this day, he keeps throwing up both instances in my face and chokes me out and humiliates me but wants my forgiveness, which I have done because I want God to forgive me. I have confessed my sins to God, repented of my sins, and turned from sin. I personally saw satan enter my husband one night we were in bed and his chest rose all the way up and his eyes were fixated while he was fussing at me. In his mind since I committed adultery 15 years ago he says the only way we can fix our marriage is for us to have a threesome or he keeps cheating and I better not say anything to him about it. He said he needs to give me consequences for what I did. Almighty God has kept me from flipping all the way out. He tells me that if I leave him he will kill me and himself. He's full of anger, he isolates me, I hate going home, I'm like a prisoner in my own home. Sometimes when I wake up he's staring at me with so much hate in his eyes. He wakes up mad, he goes to bed mad. He's only happy when he has sinned or forces things upon me that he knows that I hate. Once he humiliates me then he wants sex or that's another problem. I feel like I'm constantly raped by my husband. Please pray for me.
				
			 
	
 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. 
					
				 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		 
 
		