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tamvan
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A year and a half ago, I was blessed with the most wonderful person in my life. In little time, I knew he was my soulmate, However needless to say, I did not know that at first. I lied at the beginning of our relationship about my personal history and spent a great deal of time covering them up. I was scared and insecure about myself and my worth, which was why I lied. When we had a fallout this past summer, I kept it to myself and let my insecurities and pain brew. I got so cold and distant because he let me down that he began to suspect I was unfaithful. I never strayed from him, although during those hard times I started to doubt him. Now, we are broken up and I feel I only have myself to blame. I should have told the truth and cast my insecurities aside instead of trying to pretend everything was ok. Now through all the lies, denial, etc., he does not believe me and we are done with under the suspicion I was unfaithful. I know this is a formula for a disaster, so all I pray for is that God shines light on the truth. I can understand that based on my actions, we should not be together right now until I am better.. However I pray that he doesn't lose faith. He doesn't lose sight of what he saw in the first place. He sees the truth finally. Also that he doesn't feel that I desecrated and threw away a blessing God gave us and the world we built together in His name. I pray that God stays with him and he feels His presence during his loneliest times and that no one leads him astray.
