TJ1488
Disciple of Prayer
Today has been another rough day. As I drove to work this morning tears just fell from my eyes. Another day without the person I love so deeply is so hard. I recently posted about a breakup that I am having a really rough time with. I keep praying and praying for some comfort and I just hope it comes. My ex is all I think about and I think about all of our amazing times together and insignificant fight that tore us apart. I have never felt this much pain and hurt in my entire life. I feel so alone and feel like people just have the same thing to say to me. Oh you will find better, let it go or forget about him. It is hard to forgot about someone that you care so deeply for and shared three years with. We do not speak as he will not speak to me and I never did anything to deserve that. It is like he just shut the door. I have our dog that we bought together and she is a constant reminder of him. She loved him so much and I just feel like a huge piece of our lives just vanished for reasons we did not deserve. I want to be happy again. I don't and can't continue to force a smile that is not geniune everyday. I just do not understand why this is happening. I wish he could understand the love I have for him and how I would do anything to make it work. I don't know where else to turn to find some peace within. I need prayers. I need God to show me something to say that it is going to be ok. I feel alone and like I do not have anyone to listen or help me through this. Everyone has their own life and their own stuff going on and I just need something. It is hard to make it through work because I have to fight back tears all day and I cannot keep continuing this to affect my life in this way. I pray so hard that he helps me through this. Also, I need to take a minute for a close friend of the family who is having emergency back surgery today. I pray that everything goes smooth and that she heals quickly and finds her pain gone. Any prayers are greatly appreciated. Thank you.
