SISTER, I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH. BEEN THERE, DONE THAT. I CAN SAY THAT GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING YOU'RE GOING THROUGH AND IT HASN'T CAUGHT HIM BY SURPRISE. KNOW ONE THING... HE LOVES YOU MORE THEN YOU CAN EVERY IMAGINE. KEEP YOUR EYS ON HIM AND NOT ON YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES, IF THAT'S POSSIBLE RIGHT NOW. HE DEMANDS HOLINESS THROUGH ALL OUR TRIALS AND PAIN. NOT TO DISCOURAGE YOU, BUT WE NEED TO REMEMBER THAT GOD IS HOLY AND GRACIOUS AT THE SAME TIME. THE LIST CAN GO ON AND ON. HE WOULD RATHER SEE YOU NAKED, STARVING, OUT OF WORK AND DOING HIS WILL AND WALKING RIGHTEOUSLY THEN LIVING THE GOOD LIFE AND WITH NO TROUBLES AND MONEY IN YOUR POCKET AND OUT OF HIS WILL. HARD TO FATHOM, HUH? I WILL PRAY FIRST AND FORMOST FOR YOUR WALK TO BE STRENGTHEN AND GET TO KNOW HIM MORE DEEPLY AND FILLED WITH HIS SPIRIT AND I BELIEVE THEN YOU WILL KNOW WHAT TO DO WITHOUT FALLING INTO DISPARE. MY PRAYER FOR YOU IS THAT, EVEN WHEN THE WORLD AROUND US IS FALLING APART, YOU CAN KNOW THAT GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE AND WITH HIS LEADING YOU CAN LIVE A VICTORIOUS LIFE HERE AND NOW. KEEP YOU EYES OFF YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES AND LOOK TO HIM (HIS HOLY WORD) AND APPLY SCRIPTURE TO YOUR WALK YOU ARE IN NOW. YOU'LL SEE GOD WORK WONDER IN YOUR LIFE. GOD BLESS YOU SISTER
DAVID