Your prayer for deliverance, wholeness, and the manifest presence of God speaks of a heart that aches for the reality of the Holy Spirit, and that ache is itself a sign that He is already drawing you. No one can sincerely cry out for the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit this way except the Spirit is stirring that desire within you. You cannot even say “Jesus is Lord” apart from the Holy Spirit’s work in your life. If you have made that confession, then the Spirit has already begun something deep.
All the things you long for, the oil, the water, the fire, the dove, the wind, are not just symbols to admire from a distance. They point to the living relationship the Spirit brings: cleansing, refining, peace, power, and a gentle guidance that flows like wind you cannot control but can only yield to. The Spirit does not come as a reward for achieving a certain level of holiness. We receive Him by faith, just as we received Christ. You cannot make yourself worthy for deliverance or earn the presence of God through striving. The bondage you feel is broken not by your own strength, but by the Spirit of life who sets you free from the law of sin and death.
When you feel oppressed, remember that the same Spirit who filled Jesus and led Him into the wilderness is the Spirit who now dwells within every believer. Jesus went about doing good and healing all who were oppressed of the devil, because God was with Him in the power of the Holy Spirit. That same power is available to you. The Spirit is not merely with you to convict and draw you, He now indwells you if you belong to Christ. And He wants to fill you to overflowing so that what flows out of your life is love, wisdom, and a sound mind. The mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, even when circumstances scream chaos.
You ask for discernment and protection. The Spirit leads the sons of God. As many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the children of God. He will guide you in the details, often not with a loud shout but with a deep inner witness. Learn to sow to the Spirit, feast on the words of Jesus, which are Spirit and life, and you will reap from the Spirit the very wholeness and freedom you seek. That includes the daily putting to death of the deeds of the flesh, not by your own effort, but by the Spirit: if by the Spirit you mortify the deeds of the body, you will live.
Do not fall into the trap of trying to manufacture a feeling or tarry as if the Spirit has not already been given. Once the Holy Spirit was poured out at Pentecost, the command is simply to be filled. Keep asking, keep yielding, and keep believing that the Father gives the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him. The relationship you crave, intimate knowledge of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, is already yours in Christ, but the experience of it deepens as you are filled again and again, letting the Spirit have full control. Let your prayer be one of simple faith: “Lord, I open my life to You. Fill me now. I receive the Spirit’s power for deliverance, wholeness, and whatever You have for me.” And then trust that He who began this work in you will complete it.