We hear the deep pain, frustration, and anger in your words, and our hearts ache with you. The sense of loss—of joy, stability, security, and even your identity—is overwhelming, and we want you to know that God sees every tear, every injustice, and every stolen dream. You are not forgotten, and your cries do not fall on deaf ears. However, we must address some critical truths from Scripture to guide you toward healing, restoration, and alignment with God’s will.
First, we must rebuke the language of decreeing, demanding, and commanding creation into existence as if we hold the power of God Himself. This is not how prayer works, nor is it how God operates. Jesus taught us to pray, *"Your kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven"* (Matthew 6:10 WEB). We do not dictate to God; we humbly submit to His perfect plan, even when it is painful. The idea that we can "speak life" into existence apart from God’s sovereignty is a dangerous deception. Proverbs 19:21 reminds us, *"There are many plans in a man’s heart, but Yahweh’s counsel will prevail."* True power lies in surrender to God, not in our own words or demands.
We also must address the bitterness and anger in your words. While your pain is understandable, Scripture warns us about the dangers of harboring such intense rage. Ephesians 4:26-27 says, *"Be angry, and don’t sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your wrath, and don’t give place to the devil."* The curses and wishes of harm you’ve spoken over others—even those who have wronged you—are not aligned with God’s heart. Romans 12:19 instructs, *"Don’t seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, ‘Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.’"* We must release these burdens to God and trust Him to bring justice in His time and in His way.
Your focus on a "new cute guy" as the solution to your pain is concerning, especially when it is framed in terms of sexual happiness and personal fulfillment outside of God’s design for relationships. The Bible is clear that marriage is a sacred covenant between one man and one woman, and it is meant to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33). If you are seeking a spouse, it must be with the intention of honoring God, not merely filling a void or satisfying personal desires. 1 Corinthians 7:2 reminds us, *"But, because of sexual immoralities, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband."* If you are not married, we encourage you to seek God’s will for your life first, trusting that He will provide a godly spouse in His perfect timing.
The mention of "Wedding Air" and "Career Air" is unclear, but it seems you feel as though your dreams of marriage and success have been stolen. While we do not know the specifics of your situation, we want to remind you that God is the restorer of all things. Joel 2:25 says, *"I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the great locust, the grasshopper, and the caterpillar, my great army, which I sent among you."* God can redeem what has been lost, but restoration begins with surrendering our plans to Him. Jeremiah 29:11 assures us, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."*
You also mention feeling torn apart and struggling with your identity. In Christ, you are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17), and your worth is not defined by your circumstances, your past, or the opinions of others. Psalm 139:14 declares, *"I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well."* If you are considering changing your name or starting over, we encourage you to seek God’s guidance in this. A name change may symbolize a fresh start, but true transformation comes from renewing your mind in Christ (Romans 12:2).
We must also address the spiritual warfare you describe. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), but Jesus came to give us life abundantly. You are not powerless against the schemes of the devil. Ephesians 6:10-12 reminds us, *"Finally, be strong in the Lord, and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."* We encourage you to put on the full armor of God daily and stand firm in His truth.
Lastly, we must emphasize the importance of salvation through Jesus Christ. You mention the "blood of Jesus" and "God’s will," but if you have not personally placed your faith in Jesus as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so. Romans 10:9 says, *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."* There is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12), and it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). If you have not yet surrendered your life to Him, we pray that you would do so today.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is hurting deeply. Lord, You see the pain, the anger, and the sense of loss that has overwhelmed her. You know the injustices she has faced, and we ask that You would bring Your perfect justice and restoration into her life. Father, we repent on her behalf for any words spoken in anger or bitterness, and we ask that You would cleanse her heart and renew her mind. Help her to release the burdens she has been carrying and to trust in Your sovereignty.
Lord, we pray for healing in every area of her life—emotionally, spiritually, physically, and financially. You are the God who restores, and we ask that You would redeem what has been stolen and bring beauty from ashes. Father, we ask that You would guide her steps and lead her into Your perfect will. If it is Your plan for her to marry, we pray that You would bring a godly spouse into her life—one who loves You and will cherish her as Christ cherishes the Church. Until then, help her to find her identity and worth in You alone.
We rebuke the schemes of the enemy in her life, Lord. We declare that no weapon formed against her will prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and we ask that You would surround her with Your protection. Father, we pray for provision in her life—financially, medically, and in every other area of need. You are Jehovah Jireh, our Provider, and we trust that You will meet her needs according to Your riches in glory.
Lord, we ask that You would soften her heart and draw her closer to You. Help her to find peace in Your presence and to trust in Your timing. We pray that she would experience the sufficiency of Your grace (2 Corinthians 12:9) and that Your strength would be made perfect in her weakness. Father, we ask that You would fill her with hope and remind her that You are working all things together for her good (Romans 8:28).
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the only name by which we can be saved. Amen.
We encourage you to seek godly counsel and community, whether through a local church or trusted believers who can walk alongside you in this season. You are not alone, and God has not abandoned you. Psalm 34:18-19 says, *"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but Yahweh delivers him out of them all."* Hold fast to His promises, and trust that He is working even when you cannot see it.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
